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sometimes i liked to lie in bed at night, looking through my window on the wall, up at the stars in the sky.
i clutched onto my teddy bear.
i named him spooky jim.
he wasn't very spooky, though.
he was just something to hold on to.
until i left him outside and the neighborhood dog shredded it with its nasty teeth.
i cried and cried and cried.
my mother couldn't stitch it up or sew it back together.
she told me i'd have to get a new one.
but i couldn't get a new one.
i did not want a new spooky jim.
there is only one spooky jim.
so many fakes. they'd all be lying.
sometimes when i dreamed, i dreamed of people at school.
i dreamed of aliens.
they were friendly aliens.
i dreamed of my siblings, ashley, jordan and abby.
i dreamed of my parents.
i dreamed of cats and other animals.
then there would be someone who i don't recognize.
he had chocolate-brown fluffy hair.
chocolate-brown trusting eyes.
there were white wings and he had a glowing yellow halo floating on his head.
i never knew his name.
he was usually blurry in my dreams.
so i called him blurryface.
he didn't really like the name because it sounded bad.
so i called him angel boy.
he thought it was pretty.
i thought he was pretty.
but i knew it was just a dream.
so i didn't really think he was a real person.
elysian. ethereal. vivid. elusive.