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Kellys pov:
I am have successfully
locked myself in my master bathroom, which would be over kill since casie is at school. But it my safe space, where I let out all my negative feelings and demons. It also acts as the only spot in my house where I can't reach anything sharp or dangerous it hurt myself. So I sit back against the door, my slim wrist tuck away in a red knit sweater before I throw them around my legs to bring them close it myself. I drop my head in my legs. The warm of my white sweats pressing against my forehead. Deep breaths I think. Deep breaths.
That's shit because I feel the tear start to well up in my eyes and breathing become more short quick little gasp. Shit shit. I wish he was here right now. He also knows how to help.
"Dad?"
It's Casie. Why isn't she in school. Crap she must of got out early. Fuck. She never seen me like this before. This is new even the he's about 30hr away, I got to get him to at least look after Casie.
But no word comes from my mouth. The only things that mange to come is my not so slight sobs and heavy breathing. Shit why did my body have to fail me. Why in front of Cassie. She just a kid she should not be involved in this.
It's to late because I hear Casie at the door again her voices echoing from the crack above my head.
" are you okay?"
How does one say anything when words aren't your best friend?
Before my mind goes completely radio silence I throw my body away from the door and into the far corner of the room. Letting all the demons come around me.
You left them. You're the reason why you're alone right now.
He's gone beacause your bullshits too much to handle.
She going to leave you if you don't grow the fuck up ......
Blackness.
Cassie pov :
Schools out early since it's Christmas break. Something tells me dad has forgot since he not in the house when I come home.
"Dad?" I call
I walk around the kitchen nothing.
"Dad?" I says again into the empty studio
Nothing where his he.
I make my way up to the bedroom where a can he sobs coming from behind the door.
Shit. Dad. He in here.
"Dad?" I say in a calming voice.
No answer. Just cries more and more cries.
I try talking to him buts that's no use. Adventually, I hear somthing solid move around and take that as my cue to open up the door. I start soft and gentle slow wiggling it before it swings open.
There's dad laid out in on the floor in a mess of tears. His hair all mated from raking his fingered thought it and is red knit sweeter half off.
I slowly crouch down and skim his should. He flinches and the last words her barely mange's to say is "call my boyfriend" before I stay put in utter shock.
Who the heck is his boyfriend and when was my dad gay. Like I am old enough now to know that so.. when was he going to tell me. Snap out of it Cassie, now is not the time to worry about your dad's sexuality, when he is having a panic attack on the bathroom floor. I run out of the bathroom to get dad's phone and like I have seen it before, it's on the kitchen counter. I open the phone up. Going thought the password word with easy since it's my birthday and finding and contact with a "❤️" by it. The contact states. "Em ❤️" . I press call and wait patiently.
Ring-ring
" hello" I deep husky voice answers
"hi-"
The Person on the other end interrupts "Colson I told you I am in a interview"
That when a lump forms in my throat. It can't be. At first I never gave much thought about what "em" could mean. Like it could have been short of a pet name it some edit spelling of Edward. But Nope. It had to be the Eminem. My dad dating the Eminem. His arch rival. His cause to all I his pain and he ask me to ask him to come help him?. Was she about to meet the Eminem?
"Em, it's not colson, it's his daughter Cassie. He asked me to call you to come down because he is not doing for mental or physical. Right now he is having a pretty in tense panic attack right now"
There a quick sigh on the other end.
"Okay you go stay with home for a bit and tell him I am on my way weather he likes it or not "
"Okay" and the line goes slient.
I drop the phone and head back to dad.
Em's POV
Why did I have to get that call now. Just right as I am about to go on stage. And why did it have to come from his daughter. Now that one more person that knows about us and can play us with it. Colson. I love him to death but he's a lot.
"Hey..umm bad timing but I just got a call that a family member is trying it commit. So.. do you think we could reschedule"
A family member really marsh really. But I guess it works.
" yea I guess " on of the directors says.
Then em as bolt out of there as quick as he can. He will not let his boyfriend think about sucide a longer. What would he do if he were to. Commit? Em didn't want to talk about that.
He's sitting on the free away tapping his fingers anxiously on the top of his steering wheel. He is caught in some big traffic that about miles in front of home and miles behind him.
He sighs. Just get me home to my baby.
I never should of have left him, he thought
When em arrives at colson places he rushes his way thought the front door. Not even knock to let Cassie know. He simple uses he key since they're dating after all. Up the stairs he runs into Kelly's bedroom. Which he knows is his favourite spot in these situations. And as you know it he was right, he always knows where is baby is.
He looks over a Cassie she looks dumb founded.
"Hey, I will explain later, I know this is really weird right now" he add with a reassuring smile " just let me get your dad centre before that tho"
She smiled back. He took that as confirmation and walked in to see kells. Jesus kells looked like shit. It made his heart break.
When Kelly finally saw em, he picked up is sore and tired body and cradled arias the floor to wear em was now kneeling. Em felt is arms go around his waist before col had him complete sitting now and tucking his feet along the bottom. A feet hug as you will. Em complete melted at the touch.
« Kells can you talk to me ? « he says in a hushed tone .
Kells lids he head from em lap and mumbles a quick "mmm" before saying " I love you "
Damn em thought this going to be a long night
Casies pov
I am in my room slightly down the hall form my dad bedroom where him and apparently his boyfriend are sitting.
"Aughhhhhhh!" I scream rips tho the large halls of it mansion make it feel insanely small all the sudden.
This make my blood go cold. I stop
"Aughhhhhhhhh!" Another one followed by very intense sobbing. Until it sounds like who ever made that sound is choking.
That when I realized.
Dad.
I run all the way down the hall. Panting when I reach the bathroom. Even though em asked me not to be here, I can't help my self. Not after it sounds like he was dying.
Em doesn't even notice me because he is to busy with dad in his lap slowly rubbing his back. Dad's face is red and teary eyed, his eyeliner dripped and stained down his face. Clothes are slung. And he's curled in the fetal position hugged close to his boyfriend.
"Colson I need you to talk to me please" matters sounds like he's bagging. That same hand is still rubbing along his slender build.
My eyes trails to a spot on dad's ribs. It red and white a filled with tine paper cut lines. Shit he self-
" aughhhhhhhhh!"
My sentence is cut off by another scream this time I feel this one in my heart like a bullet. Somthing in me fractures. I shakily grab my phone and call up grandma. Maybe I can go there for a bit.
It’s early in the morning and I am sitting at grandmas when I get a call. It some random number I don't recognize. I pick it up anyway.
"Hey" I say
" hey, it em calling to let you know that he as healed and would love to see his daughter again"
Tears start to form. But not physical, the ones you feel in the tiny pit of your stomach type.
" ... and I feel there a lot we need to explain to you aswell..."
" okay, I will be over in a few" I says before hand the phone up.
" who was that sweetie" grandma says from the kitchen table.
" ummm..." shit I can't say his boyfriend can I ? Or what happed that evening and why I left.
" a friend" I say dryly. " she wants be to meet her at her place. If that okay. Could you perhaps drive me over ?"
" sure cass, pack you stuff and I will take you" she place her glass down, along with her mug before getting up.
I follow. " thanks gran"
The car ride to "my friend's house" is really quiet and awkward, since most of what I say is me making up lies because gran can't know the truth, at least not yet. One thing I can say is that I am thankful for my friend Living next to my dad place.
After a while her car pulls up to my friend place. I grab my stuff and open the door.
" thanks again gran" I says before walk out.
" anytime" she says, before I am left in the driveway, watching her blue Audi drive down the road.
I wait until it's gone before I start walking to dads.
"Knock, knock" I Knock on the door, arrived at dad massive places or technically my own flipping house.
The door opens almost instantly. There em in his boyfriends sweats and shirtless.
“ hey Casie” he says “ welcome back”
“ thanks” I walk pass him and to my bedroom where a dump my stuff on my bed. That’s when I notice that dad’s bedroom door is closed.
“em” I shout from upstairs.
“Yea?”
“Where’s dad ? “
“ he is down here sitting on the coach” he replies.
I walk down stairs, after dropping my stuff.
Damn,it’s been an adventfull twelve hours.
Dad is sitting on the coach, watching
some news station, while he’s is knees up curled in a blanket.
I am so happy he still here right now. My heart start to fill with the good sunshine happy. Maybe Eminem is not as bad as I thought he was.
“Dad ?” I say approaching the coach before taking a seat.
“ hey Casie, baby. I love you. Come here” he waves a hand, before go curl into his chest. His arms wrapping around me. I enjoy his warmth, his heart beating. Thankful yet again he’s alive. I feel a tear run down my cheek. Dad doesn’t notice though. We stay there in a thankful silence. We both know, know ones watching the stupid new channel.
Kells pov :
I don’t know what happens last night, but whatever it was seamed to affect Marshall and Casie a lot. I blacked out, but by the look of moth there faces and deal circles I know my Demons did somethings I can’t take back. I just hope that Casie Alright and that she never seen much. I look down at her rapped in my arms, against my chest like when she was little. Her soft brown eyes asleep. I stare at the blue light of the television, before my shut as well
Eminem’s pov:
Thank fuck it’s the weekend today and I am off of work.
Kells and his daughter, Casie are both out coal on the coach. It kind of cute to watch, how much they love each other but once they wake up, we have shit ton of explaining to do. But will let them have their moment for now. They deserve it.
It about 2 now in the afternoon and everyone’s is laying on the coach still. I hate to be this person but…
“ So Casie, I guess we have some explaining to do ..? “
“ yup” is the last thing before I head into a massive speech about mine and Kells relationship status from the last 4 months.
“ so .. that how this happened ?” She asked at the end of it.
“ yup that most of it” I hear kells adds in.
Then she gone back to her room.
I know there still a lot of stuff her and her dad need to talk about but will give her time and let them do that on there own time.