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It was so stupid.
Why was he obsessing about this? It's not like he would ever see that boy again. Or like if he ever did, that he could be into boys. Maybe he was, but then again, he would never be into someone like Isak.
The nerd who only studied and got high with his friends at his dorm.
He needed to stop thinking about Even.
He sighed and put the book that he was reading against his face to hide his ever-blushing cheeks. Those damn blue eyes wouldn't leave him alone.
He had discreetly followed Even through his quest, just in case he might need him and that way Isak would be nearby. At least that’s what he told himself. It was not because Even had taken his breath away or because he felt the need to be close to him.
Even was doing great. Isak was silently keeping track of him. Until his supervisor decided it was the best time to make sure that everything was okay.
"Oh Hi Isak! Fancy meeting you here.”
This couldn’t be happening right now!
“I wanted to let you know how good you’ve been doing, isak. I know I don't have to worry about you, but it is still my job to..."
Even was moving again, but he couldn’t follow him anymore because this woman wouldn’t stop talking to him.
"I understand, Steph. Thank you. "
"Are you excited about winter break? Being a first year it's always though. I remember my first year of college..."
Even was out of sight and Stephanie was practically dragging him back to the office so he could leave his cart there and go home. He moved around as fast as he could, but by the time he was done everyone was gone. Including Even.
The view outside the cottage was breath taking. It was a clear night and millions of stars were illuminating the sky. On any other night like this Isak would be using his telescope to trace constellations and to look at a couple of planets, but tonight all he could do was hold onto his biology book for next semester and think about a certain guy.
He closed the book and called Jonas. He picked up on the first ring
"Merry early Christmas to me! My best friend has finally called me after he ran away to his getaway house without even saying good bye. "
“Stop being so dramatic and get your ass over here. I want to get high.”
“I see. this is what our friendship comes down to. You taking my weed away from me.”
“Shut up and get over here.”
It didn’t take too long for Jonas to show up. After all their winter cabins were close enough to each other. Although it was freezing, Isak wanted to be outside while he smoked. Taking it all in.
“Do you believe in love at first sight?” he asked. More of a whisper than anything.
Jonas took his time blowing out his last hit before he answered. “Another crush? What number is this one? 15? 16? I lost count after Chris.”
“Asshole.”
Isak pulled in knees against his chest, resting his chin on them. Jonas turned to his side and truly looked at his friend. Isak was usually a very outgoing guy among his group. They all joked about his crushes and the speed at which Isak seemed to go through them. But deep down, Jonas knew that his friend was a sensible soul, who longed to find someone.
“I’m tired. Tired of waiting for signals that never come or get mixed up. Every single time I really thought that I could have had a chance, and yet here I am. Alone.”
He was shaking, but it wasn’t due to the cold. He had waited a long time to be able to say those things and Jonas knew. He knew that under all the jokes there was a true feeling. He let him talk and didn’t say anything because Isak just needed somebody that would listen to him. That was his role here.
“I promised myself that I would stop when I got into college. Boys would not get in the way of my education. But, I felt something different this time, Jonas. And it scared the crap out of me. I don’t want to think about it. Yet it’s the only thing I can think of. ”
Isak took another hit and sighed as he let the smoke out.
“I’m not going to let it take over. I can’t. Not anymore.”
“Never say never.”
“What?”
“I said never say never. Who knows? This really might be it.”
“Jonas. I'm not joking.”
“No, Isak, hear me out. I think it’s all bullshit too. I personally don’t believe in love at first sight, but I do believe in karma, and frankly, the universe has been a bitch to you and I think that, if you felt that way, then it’s not a mistake. It’s a sign that things are changing for you. I can’t promise that it will be this guy, but don’t give up. It’s cheesy as hell, but we all have somebody out there. Yours is coming. The good karma also comes around. Be patient.”
Be patient.
Classes went back in session again and Isak was being patient. He was going to all of them. Getting perfect scores in each single one. He got a couple of new friends and went out to a few parties. Jonas and the boys visited him a couple of times and they always caused trouble, but those were the best moments.
Isak was being patient, yet he couldn’t stop himself from turning around every time he noticed a tall blond guy walking by. There were moments where he would think of what could have been as he sipped a hot cup of tea at his favorite coffee shop on campus. But he didn’t want to dwell too much on those thoughts.
If it was ever meant to be, Even, we’ll find each other again.
His phone beeped with a new notification. It was a message from Marcus about this big party that they were planning to go to tonight. He quickly replied yes and left his phone face down on the table. Concentrating once again on his notes for the upcoming quiz. Out of the corner of his eye he saw somebody walking in front of the store.
The guy stopped, pulled out his phone and kept walking.
Isak sipped on his tea, thinking about what he would wear to this party.