if someone asked me at the end, i'll tell them put me back in it

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• these hands could hold the world (but it'll never be enough) by crimsonv0id

  Fandoms: Mass Effect Trilogy  

  • Teen And Up Audiences
  • Major Character Death
  • F/M
  • Complete Work

  21 Mar 2026

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Female Shepard/Garrus Vakarian
  • Female Shepard (Mass Effect)
  • Garrus Vakarian
  • Angst
  • Hurt No Comfort
  • Fluff
  • not much though
  • Destroy Ending (Mass Effect)
  • Canonical Character Death
  • Implied/Referenced Character Death
  • Angst with No Happy Ending
  • Custom Shepard (Mass Effect)
  • Named Shepard (Mass Effect)
  • No Shepard Without Vakarian

  Summary

  Part of her hopes there's nothing left of her to find after. Just so there's nothing left to bring back. Just in case. Because she doesn't think she can stomach the thought of coming back from the dead again feeling even more wrong and even less human. She just wants them to leave her alone. Move on.
  Let Commander Shepard be a fucking memory. Because she's tired. And she wants everything to just stop.

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  Or Shepard's sure she's going to die in this war but she cares more about Garrus getting hurt by it than herself.

  Series

  • Part 1 of if someone asked me at the end, i'll tell them put me back in it

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