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    Shane Hollander is eighteen, second overall draft pick, and quietly, a father. He's learned to carry both versions of himself with practiced ease.

    Then there's Ilya Rozanov: first overall, unbothered, and already taking up more space in Shane's head than he has any right to.

    Their rivalry is the story everyone wants to tell. Shane is starting to suspect the real one is something else entirely.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet a little later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    02 Jun 2026

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    In 2014, Shane Hollander walked away from hockey, from the spotlight, and from every dream he built since he was 8 years old.

    In 2014, Ilya Rozanov felt like he was losing himself. So he pushed everything away, so no one would get hurt when he eventually cracked.

    Years later, they reunite, Shane — with so many scars, a thousand secrets, and a heart that never learned how to let go.

    Ilya Rozanov thought he knew what losing felt like.
    He was wrong.

    Or: Sometimes, love doesn’t leave.
    Sometimes, someone keeps it for you.

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    15 May 2026

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    The Boston Bears group chat had sixty-three new messages in the span of three minutes.

    His coffee forgotten, Ilya swiped open the chat, scrolling quickly to find the source of the commotion. A link to The Athletic, posted by Jensen, their captain, followed by a string of exclamation points. Ilya tapped it, the headline materializing on his screen like a blow to the chest:

    BREAKING: MONTREAL VOYAGEURS’ SECOND DRAFT SHANE HOLLANDER ANNOUNCES RETIREMENT

    Ilya's pulse jumped, hard and sudden in his throat. The mug slipped from his hand, not falling but landing too heavily on the counter, coffee slopping over the rim. He set it down properly, his movements mechanical, and forced himself to read the rest of the headline:

    20-YEAR-OLD ROOKIE OF THE YEAR STEPPING AWAY TO PURSUE HARVARD BUSINESS DEGREE

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    Shane Hollander has spent his entire life living and breathing hockey. At twenty, at the height of his career, he makes an unthinkable choice: he walks away to discover who he is beyond the ice.

    But some things don’t stay behind.

    What happens when the rivalry between him and Rozanov ends, but the pull doesn’t?

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Shane spends months quietly watching Ilya at university, sure someone like him would never be interested in him. When they finally talk at a pub, there’s clear chemistry, but mixed signals and Ilya’s friends leave Shane hurt and unsure. After Ilya doesn’t stand up for him Shane pulls away again. Then, they get stuck together in a dark elevator, and everything changes and this time, Shane doesn’t run.

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    22 Apr 2026