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  1. Public Bookmark 8

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    Shane Hollander believes systems can be changed.

    Ilya Rozanov believes they must be controlled.

    Until one day, they are forced into a political marriage, which is supposed to serve as an image for unity.

    It doesn’t.

    As the government tightens its grip and dissent is pushed into the shadows, alliances form where they shouldn’t, loyalties fracture, and the line between survival and complicity begins to blur.

    Somewhere beyond the reach of the state, a quiet resistance is growing.

    And before long, both Shane and Ilya will be forced to decide what they are willing to lose to change the country they live in.

     

    Tags will be updated as new chapters come along. And in this AU, Ilya will speak perfect English as there's no other "nations" in this fic.

     

    Update 5/18: Added Rose's backstory to chapter 7

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    15 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 51

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    Shane Hollander, an up and coming young actor has just landed his first big movie. He's heard and seen his whole life that you have to fit in, not stand out. He's slowly coming to realize that maybe his sexuality isn't what he thinks it should be, but is trying hard to be 'normal'. When he meets a man who turns his whole life upside down, will he be able to confront his feelings or will he push him away and lose his chance at happiness.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    “Shane, have you been with anyone in the past six weeks?” The doctor asks.
    “Yea” Shane says automatically. He is surprised he responded so fast. Recognition starts to stew in his belly. He is starting to understand. He feels as if he might understand. “What did you find, doc?” He is more insistent now.

    “You are five weeks pregnant, Shane.”

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    13 Jun 2026

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    In a world where omegas have few rights and unmated alphas in professional hockey are required by league regulations to be paired with a state cleared omega by age 26, Ilya Rozanov, a Russian alpha with a fiery temper and a disciplinary record, is handed a stack of twelve files and told to pick his omega. To everyone's surprise, he picks the one nobody else would touch: Shane Hollander, twenty-three, a former Montreal Metros defenseman who lied his way through two years of pro hockey on suppressants and forged paperwork before he was outed during an uncontrolled heat. Three years in a state center have left him hollowed out, terrified, and rated a 5 on a temperament scale. Shane has spent those three years bracing for the worst.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    At 35, Ilya's life could not be going worse frankly. His best friend is asking for a divorce, he has a boring job and his boring co worker pities him enough to invite him to spend a few weeks with him and his family on their annual vacation to their summer cottage. And he's so pathetically lonely he accepts.

    At 22, Shane has his whole life ahead of him. He's the captain of his university's hockey team, he's suspected to be the first draft pick in the MLH and he's able to maintain a 4.0 GPA on top of all that. His lack of a social life doesn't really bother him, he'll have time to date once he's achieved his life long dream. He's sure a girl will come along eventually.

    OR Ilya is Shane's dad's hot co worker who ends up at the cottage one summer.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane scoffs, throwing his hands up. “I just want to figure this out. We have to live together, we should be—“

    “We should be what?” Ilya laughs. “Braiding each other’s hair like girls, yes?”

    “No. I just don’t think we need to be so hostile.

    “I don’t like you,” Ilya says plainly. “You are irritating, and you are boring. In two years, we will be done with hockey and college, and neither of us will have existed to each other. Let it be that.”

    (Or: Ilya Rozanov is a rich kid who has been kicked out of another university. His new university, while not bad, tries to give him a new roommate. Shane Hollander is a sweetheart who hasn't had an easy life after the loss of both of his parents. After doing some ugly things to make ends meet, all he wants is a normal, happy college experience and an education that would make his mom proud, while trying to balance the hideous things still chasing him.)

    *rape/noncon is not between shane and Ilya*

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    09 Jun 2026

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    15 years after they got married Shane and Ilya go through a painful divorce.
    5 years on and they are both forced to attend the wedding of their daughter, Izabella, to Hayden Pike's youngest son.
    Ilya isn't sure what is worse, that Callum Pike looks eerily similar to his father, or that Shane is bringing his new boyfriend to the wedding.
    Shane isn't sure that he is going to survive a long weekend with his ex husband on a Greek island.
    One island. One long weekend. One wedding. 7 Pikes. Two secretly broken hearts. What could possibly go wrong?

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    03 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander agrees to an arranged marriage because refusing could start a war. He expected a transactional relationship, minimal emotional involvement, and maybe some occasional awkward small talk.

    Instead he gets a six-foot-three stupidly attractive Russian alpha who is apparently determined to follow Shane around campus like an overprotective guard dog.

    meanwhile Ilya Rozanov was fully prepared for a spoiled, haughty omega.

    But Shane was earnest, stole his cloths, cried over his gunshot wound, and called him mine in front of his father.

    Now Ilya’s a little obsessed.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    After shocking the hockey world with a sudden retirement after his second Stanley Cup, Shane Hollander is back after years—this time, on the other side of the bench. He’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs, and he’s ready to get back into the world of hockey.

    Ilya Rozanov has been on a downward spiral these last few years, and when he gets pinched for a DUI, the Boston Raiders drop him. The only team willing to take him on? The Ottawa Centaurs.

    This wouldn’t be a problem, except for the fact that Shane and Ilya haven’t spoken in years, and Shane is raising his and Ilya’s son in secret.

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    17 May 2026

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    [Post TLG - Ilya and Shane both play for the Ottawa Centaurs]

    This time it's Ilya down on the ice.
    Shane's world shrinks down to his unconscious husband; nothing else matters.

    Shane must support Ilya through recovery and deal with the consequences of leaving the match without permission. They must both deal with some restrictions on sex as Ilya recovers, but they take every opportunity to find possible outlets as he improves.

    The extended recovery period impacts Ilya's mental health, and he has to face his own worth without hockey.

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    14 May 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 71

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    A heavy hit at a game leaves Shane Hollander in a coma with no sign of waking up.

    Ilya Rozanov vanishes in a cloud of grief and is presumed dead.

    When Shane eventually wakes up, he is forced to accept that his husband is gone. But how can he truly be gone if no body has ever been found?

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    14 May 2026

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    🌹"No questions. No feelings. Just because we want to."🌹

    Shane Hollander is a PhD student who knows how to stay invisible.
    Ilya Rozanov is Montreal’s most arrogant hockey star who never plays by rules he didn’t set himself.

    It should be easy to walk away.

    Instead, it becomes something quiet and hidden—late nights, closed doors, and a version of Ilya no one else gets to see.

    Ilya doesn’t do feelings.
    Shane was never meant for something like this.

    But he stays.
    And he falls anyway.

    And when it ends, Ilya might finally understand what it meant—
    when there’s nothing left to hold onto.

    (fake dating, secrecy, loving someone who was never going to choose you | happy ending, I promise 💔➡️❤️ and 🔥🔥🔥)

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    13 May 2026

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    The All-Stars weekend in Tampa Bay ends in a tragedy for Shane when the plane taking his parents back to Canada from their trip to Mexico explodes.
    The relationship between Shane and Ilya takes an unexpected turn. Fear has been their biggest enemy for years. The tragedy in Shane’s life makes him realize that life is too short not to live proudly and be brave about his feelings for Ilya.
    As the secret slowly comes to light, there’s a thing no one can touch: their commitment to each other.

    Inspired by the t.a.t.u song with the same title.
    If they hurt you // They hurt me too // So we'll rise up // Won't stop // And it's all about us
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    I never wished that pain upon my worst enemy. It’s killing me that you will now know exactly how much it hurts. You loved both your parents. And they loved you. I’ve seen how close you were. I am so sorry. I wish things were different.
    All I can promise is that I will be always by your side. I will always protect you. I love you more than life, Shane.

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    12 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a university student trying his best. He is managing three jobs, two majors, and one sexuality crisis that threatens to upend his hockey career before it even starts. When his best friend, Rose, begs him to come with her to an exclusive BDSM club to let loose and experiment, Shane cannot believe it when he caves to her demands and agrees. Oh and it just so happens that unbeknownst to Shane the club is owned by a Russian mob boss. But really, what could go wrong?

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    Or the one where organized crime boss Ilya meets hockey-playing uni student Shane and big feelings and kinky shenanigans unfold

    Updates 2-3x per week <3

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    17 Apr 2026

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    When Ilya Rosanov's father discovers his teenage son's secret, his fury leads to a devastating outcome: Ilya forced into a life of suffering and abuse.

    Instead of achieving his dream of playing in the MLH, Ilya ends up a sex worker in Montreal, just trying to survive.

    There, he encounters Shane Hollander, the "golden boy" of hockey, a once in a generation talent who secretly struggles with the isolation of success.

    Can these two men navigate their vastly different worlds? Will lies and secrecy catch up to them, or will they find a way to come together against the odds?

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    14 Apr 2026

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    "You do realise half of our fans want to fuck you?" Shane exhaled, watching the fireflies dance in the evening sky. Ilya shrugged.
    "They want to fuck all of us, that's how it works. What, do you think they don't want to fuck you?" He lowered his voice, teasing him. "Because I read some interesting things on Twitter."
    "Shut up."
    "You are very popular with the girls. Good boy, bass player, good looks, gentleman, probably they think you are a beast in bed."
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    Shane Hollander is the goody-two-shoes Canadian bassist of Ice Crawlers. Ilya Rozanov is their loud Russian drummer. As the band reaches unprecedented levels of success and fame in the early 2010's, these two can't stay away from each other - even though the last thing their careers need is a sexual scandal between two of the most popular rock stars of their time.

    Rockband AU!

    If you're like me and Hollanov hit you the same way Larry Stylinson did when you were 12, good luck and have fun.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    Chapters:
    14/?
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    21 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Amazing

  18. Public Bookmark 30

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    It’s 2024. Hollander and Rozanov have been married for a few years, navigating life together.
    Until sudden news forces Ilya to go back to Russia to fight for full custody of his niece before social services take her away.
    Ilya must return to the country he once escaped.
    Shane has to let him.

    They’ll have to learn how to be parents, and how not to lose each other along the way.

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    2,060

    16 Mar 2026

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