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    06 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 38

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    I wrote a novel once. A pornographic novel, “Doux” with elegant and delicate details of sex and an enigmatic ending forbye.

    O reader, I tell you: the novel is a signature of shame. A shame that would lie and perish in the warmth of the printed white pages.

    And strangely, that one pornographic novel of 180 pages, which I wrote to suffice a certain obscene desire for an immortal lover, when I was twenty four and stupid, smoked five cigarettes a day, assimilated two blue pills, and fondled the opalescent soft breasts of women under the lucid lights of gold and amber, obtained a glass of expensive wine; an expensive success, fancied by adults of splendid sexual immorality [or ‘psychology’ worshipping ‘scholars’. Whatever, I don't care]

    The origin of the scripts of the novel has a dreamy ebullient account. Dates back ten years from today, 1981, October. The aroma of chocolate and coffee paired with music and sex; a strange bar with amber dusted lights, black wood, and spiced alcohol.

    Dazai's recollecting his old days. The little story of his frivolous romance with a certain poet named Chūya.

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    02 May 2026

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    absolute fucking peak.

    your god is dead and you kiss his rotting corpse, a broken doll, one of the many you have left in your wake, yet this on was alive at some point, warm skin flush against you before the life drains out and only a cold body is left in its wake.

  3. Public Bookmark 4

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    Dazai Osamu has a wife, a house, and a life that looks almost convincing.

    Then she hires a gardener.

    And Dazai meets something he cannot unsee—
    something that feels too much like truth.

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    28 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 29

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    In a prison made for monsters, Osamu Dazai is the one even monsters avoid.
    Serving life for a string of brutal murders, he rules his cellblock with a smile and a secret kind of terror.
    Then Chuuya Nakahara arrives—newly convicted, violently defiant, and impossible to break.
    Dazai becomes obsessed.
    In a world of locked doors, gang alliances, and corrupt guards, Chuuya finds himself trapped between survival and surrender as Dazai’s fixation turns deadly. Because Dazai doesn’t just want Chuuya close.
    He wants him his.
    And prison is the perfect place for a man like Dazai to prove that no one leaves once he decides they belong to him.

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    23 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 40

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    When Dazai is denied his early morning cuddles, he gets jealous.

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    21 Apr 2026