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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    26 May 2026

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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    25 May 2026

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    When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane's relationship first-and decide that instead of letting their captain move to Ottawa, they'll just kidnap his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    13/?
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    25 May 2026

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    Shane joins Ilya on a quick trip to Moscow, which soon transforms into a nightmare. Ilya is arrested and targeted so harshly that he's not sure Russia will let him go this time.
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    Shane witnesses Ilya's family.
    Alexei and Ilya's relationship is explored.
    Yuna flies to Russia.
    Lots of Svetlana.
    Healing journey fluff afterwards.

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    Chapters:
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    25 May 2026

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    “How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”

    “It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.

    Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.

    ________

    After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.

    A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.

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    25 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov never hooked up at the CCM commercial.

    Now it's 2017. Yuna Hollander is concerned that Shane doesn't have many friends, so she signs him up on a buddy network website.
    Shane gets paired with someone else looking for a 'buddy', not knowing that it's his on-ice rival, Ilya Rozanov.

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    Chapters:
    9/9
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    25 May 2026

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    Shane has spent six years being professionally brilliant and personally confused about why Ilya Rozanov is the first thing he thinks about at conferences.

    Ilya has spent six years being professionally ruthless and privately certain that Shane Hollander is the only person in the field who actually understands what he's doing.

    Neither of them has done anything about it. They have grants to protect, tenure cases to build, and an academic rivalry that the entire field has opinions about. They are colleagues. Adversaries. Co-authors, as of this year, which is already proving to be a problem.

    Then there's Senegal. The manuscripts. The hotel room. The note Ilya left before Shane woke up, which was harder to interpret than any lost archives.

    Revise and Resubmit. Because the first draft of everything is always wrong.

    or

    Slow burn. Rivals to lovers. Forced proximity. One note that says the wrong thing. A very long fallout. Academia is brutal and so is wanting someone you can't stop arguing with.

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    25 May 2026

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    After leaving behind Russian Special Forces, former Spetsnaz operative Ilya Rozanov takes a job with Vetrov Private security hoping for a fresh start and a second chance. With high level skills and a keen eye, Ilya is tasked with protecting pop star Shane Hollander against a would-be murderer stalking him, leaving threatening messages. What starts off as a high profile, but routine job, quickly turns to more as Ilya gets to know Shane, and what lies beneath the glitzy surface of his A-list life. The Shane Hollander the world sees is charming, charismatic, perfect. The real Shane Hollander, Ilya learns, is so much more.

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    20/?
    Comments:
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    25 May 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    Chapters:
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    22 May 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are rival fraternity presidents at the University of Michigan. They're supposed to hate each other
    They don't.
    What starts as competition turns into tension. Tension turns into a kiss at a party neither of them can forget. And that kiss turns into late-night texts, wearing each other's shirts, and a secret that gets harder to keep with every passing day.

    University/fraternity AU

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    20 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander's life is filled with secret wondering— questioning whether his supportive and sexy boyfriend— Ilya Rozanov— is truly happy giving up a life of coked-up women grinding on his crotch, and secret washboard men licking trails down his body.

    Ilya's teasing response to the question was clearly not what Shane was looking for.

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    12 May 2026

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    “You are in McConnell, yes?”

    Shane blinked. “Yeah, it’s the closest to the rink so a lot of the guys on my team are there. How did you…?”

    “I see you there before”, Ilya shrugged. “You are hard to miss.”

    “Oh. Right, well..” Shane’s brain was short circuiting, unable to provide him with an appropriate response to whatever the rugby player had meant by that. He got up to leave.

    “I am in Molson, so nearby”, said Ilya, seemingly unfazed by Shane’s social faux pas, “will see you around”. He winked and Shane made a beeline for the exit, hiding the blush that was spreading steadily across his face.

    OR

    After an incident with Ilya Rosanov's college rugby team in Boston, he's forced to transfer to McGill where he meets Shane Hollander, star of the Redbirds Hockey team.

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    12 May 2026

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    “Don’t marry her. Don’t leave me.“

    Ilya Rozanov has planned dozens of perfect weddings.
    This one just happens to belong to the man he's been in love with for his for years.

    *Reuploaded after random deletion a while back*

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    Chapters:
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    12 May 2026

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    Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.

    April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.

    Ilya goes through with ending it.

    Shane lets him.

    What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.

    They learn how to live without each other.

    (Or at least, how to pretend.)

    And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.

    And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.

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    Chapters:
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    12 May 2026

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    “I’m pregnant.”

    “Pardon?”

    “I’m pregnant.”

    “Yeah, I heard you the first time. I was giving you the option to take it back.”

    “Take it back? Why would I do that?”

    “You’re not funny. Shane, genuinely please tell me what’s going on. Stop fucking around with me.”

    “Hayden, there’s a bun in my oven. I’m going to be eating for two. I’ll be out of commission for nine months. What other ways can I say this? I’m not fucking around with you. This isn’t a joke. I took four tests. I’m pregnant.” Shane said without a smile on his face. There was no laughter between his words. Hayden fell silent for a minute staring wide-eyed at Shane like he had seen a ghost.

    “Holy fucking shit.”

    or

    Shane is pregnant with Ilya’s baby. He proceeds to try to avoid Ilya while keeping the baby a secret. He’s not the best at avoiding Ilya though.

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    12 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander has built himself around routine, his life blood is hockey. Struggling to understand his team off the ice and the people around him, he carves out a few silent hours to himself. It's just him and his skates. But the hard fought peace is fragile, like cracks in too thin ice. It only takes a slight impact to shatter. Shane is fighting to hold his team and himself together as everything comes crashing down around him.

    Someone hacks into Rose Landry's phone in a club, they then release the images of Shane's texts online and all hell breaks loose. Shane is left to pick up the pieces. Ilya makes some choices in the aftermath that change everything. Shane decides to stop hiding and Ilya is a possessive asshole who makes it everyone else's problem. With far less reason to hide himself anymore, Shane begins to show more of who he really is behind the polite, media worthy façade. They instead find a team who are ready to fight the world for each other and a found family that has far reaching threads.

    Maybe Shane can have both Hockey and Ilya. The world will just have to deal with it.

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    Words:
    346,283
    Chapters:
    68/?
    Comments:
    4,651
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    573,167

    11 May 2026

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    12 Mar 2023

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    23 Oct 2022

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    23 Oct 2022

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