Duderella



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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    Beautiful. Heartbreaking.
    Reminds me of “Someone is Calling Him Shoreward”
    Not sure I’ll be able to read again but bookmarking just in case I need to suffer.

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    She hauls him back to his place – a gorgeous condo that overlooks Montreal and is 70% glass. All the reflecting, soft light makes her dress look like liquid silver. She lets it drop onto the stairs behind her.

    As she turns—

    She sees his reflection. She sees the face she knows she was never, ever meant to see. His heart isn’t in this. But then he’s glancing up at her, some stranger to a smile on his face, and she knows something she was never, ever meant to know: he will make himself go through with this. He’s going to come up the stairs—he’s already coming up the stairs.

    Fuck. She misread this entirely.

    -x-

    Rose, Sveta, and David on Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov. All set to Noah Kahan's "The Great Divide."

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    03 Mar 2026

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    Outsider pov. Tender and heartbreaking and so full of love.

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    Ilya had one job for the wedding – a job he gave himself because Shane “didn’t have the time to think about that, Ilya” – but a very important job nonetheless.

    He was going to choose the best song for their first dance as husbands. And Shane was going to regret not paying attention to his suggestions.

     

    Or: Ilya chooses their wedding song, and Shane ends up dancing to ‘Lover’ by Taylor Swift on his wedding day, and definitely not tearing up during.

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Gorgeous and emotionally devastating first dance

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    19 Feb 2026

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