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    Galina makes it a point to remind Ilya that people aren’t mind readers, and unfortunately, if there’s something wrong, he has to actually communicate this. He's aware of this. He is. Even though it's always been so much easier said than done, even on a good day.

    But when the unthinkable happens, Shane ends up seriously injured, and Ilya can't bring himself to reckon with his role in it all, or how they'll move forward.

    Now it's all the more impossible to communicate the weight of his guilt, the feelings of inadequacy, and the all-consuming fear that Shane might not survive.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    If Ilya is dead, Alexei figures he’ll still stand to inherit all his brother’s money. But he doesn’t count on Shane jumping in front of the bullet.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Ilya wants to celebrate his win. Shane indulges. Maybe a bit too much...

    My take on the line from the bonus chapter of Heated Rivalry where Ilya chooses wine over vodka because he doesn't want a "horribly ill" Shane.

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    25 May 2026

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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    24 May 2026

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    The day after getting kicked out of the playoffs by the Centaurs, Hayden Pike shows up for a post-series debrief along with the rest of the Metros. They are greeted by a roomful of cops, a recording of a late-night 911 call, and an empty chair where Shane Hollander should be.

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    17 May 2026