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  1. Rec 72

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    “They are so pretty. Pretty freckles on pretty boy and I want….”

    Shane can’t breathe. Holy fuck he can’t breathe, every fucking fantasy he’s had since he was seventeen is right in front of him and he doesn’t know what to do.

    “What…” licks his lips and watches as Rozanov leans forward, like he can’t help but try to be closer, “What do you want?”

    A smile, slow and wicked, sharp canines that Shane wants at his throat.

    “I told you, to be boyfriend.”

    Or: Shane has come out as gay, and Ilya isn't going to let that opportunity pass him by.

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    21 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 61

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    I’m really bad at summaries, but basically this takes place after Tuna Melt Gate. Shane and Ilya are still denying themselves any chance at happiness and refusing to admit how they really feel about each other. Everything is canon up until that point, but afterward Ilya falls into a really dark place and almost follows the same path as his mother. (Nothing graphic is described, but please take care of yourselves.)

    Before that future can happen, their children somehow travel back in time and show up on Ilya’s doorstep, terrified and desperate to stop it. While Shane and Ilya are trying to figure out how these kids even exist, it slowly becomes clear that the future they come from seemed like one of those fantasies that you felt wouldn't come true lucky for them this isn't the case :)

    first fic ever lwk nervy..

     

    (This is not discontinued, I've been extremely busy lately, I will try to get the new chapters out by Wednesday! Thank you for your patience.)

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Right after Shane wins the 2011 Rookie of the Year award, he makes a wild suggestion: Ilya could spend the following day with him.

    They end up doing a few boring activities, like hiking, reading, or getting married.

    What follows is a long-distance, highly secret, frustrating, and completely loving married life, while still being arch-rivals to the rest of the world.

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    8/?
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    12 Jun 2026

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    Ilya did the right thing, calling things off with Shane. But why did it hurt so much? Meanwhile Shane was struggling and felt his life spiraling after Ilya had told them they were done.

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    04 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 47

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    Shane Hollander lives his life in a routine.

    School. Hockey practice. Gym. Repeat.

    This year, he decides to listen to his mother's advice and finally start living a little. He just doesn't expect one night to change everything.

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    02 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 94

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    The year after Viktoriya is born Shane and Ilya in no particular order: become boyfriends, break up, get caught twice, make a 5-year vision board, and love each other through it all.
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    Sequel to If You Can Find a Reason, a Reason to Stay

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    01 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 43

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    “You know, I don’t think we’ve actually said more than five words to each other since, um… since the last time.”

    “The last time? I don’t think I remember. I guess it’s been so long.”

    Ilya was lying straight through his teeth. He remembered every moment of that afternoon like it was yesterday: remembers the elation of letting the cry of “Shane” pass through his lips and the crack in his voice as he begged “Hollander”. He had been sitting on that couch, with the taste of tuna and cheese stuck to the inside of his mouth and a puddle drying on his stomach, for the last thirteen years. But he couldn’t say that.

    He needed Shane to tell him. Needed somebody — the only other person in the world who knows what happened that day — to confirm he wasn’t crazy, that he didn’t imagine the whole thing. That there had been something real, even if just for a millisecond. He needed somebody to tell him back the story he’d been picking apart with a magnifying glass for the better part of two decades.

    The tuna meltdown was really, truly the end — until a series of unfortunate run-ins force Shane and Ilya to face the memories that have been torturing them for nearly fifteen years, and face each other.

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    24 May 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    24 May 2026

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    Everything starts with a kiss under a shower in Toronto…

    Shane Hollander has to accept that the best way to stop the buzzing in his anxious brain is to touch and kiss his arch-rival.

    Always running away from his thoughts and feelings Ilya Rozanov only gets a good night of sleep with a boring Canadian in his arms.

    They play hard on the ice. They have fun in bed. Maybe someday they are prepared to acknowledge their feelings?

    First there will be smut, later fluff and always idiots in love.

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    22 May 2026

  10. Public Bookmark *

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    When hockey legend Shane Hollander is traded from Montreal to Boston in a middle-of-the-night deal, the entire NHL is shocked to their core. The news makes national headlines, and if Dr. Rozanov had time to read the news, then he would’ve seen it. Then maybe he wouldn’t have been so surprised when a concussed Shane Hollander rolls into his Boston ER.

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    22 May 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 74

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    “Maybe I am a psychopath. Maybe I am a stalker. Maybe I am crazy. But you are nothing but a pathetic fag, Shane Hollander. No one will miss you.

    Not even Ilya.”

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    Post tuna melt scene, Shane eventually realizes he’s gay all on his own. There’s only one problem. His rebound relationship isn’t kind and supportive. Rose Landry is a psychopath with enough money and fame to have the world her way. She’s not afraid to use drugs, arson, zip ties, and other methods to always get whatever and whoever she wants. This includes trying and planning to marry Shane in under a year.

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    18 May 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 40

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    In the summer of 2017, Shane discovered his body could carry a baby.
    In the autumn of 2017, fear pushed Ilya out of Shane’s life.
    In the spring of 2018, Shane lost himself.
    Also in the spring of 2018, Ilya fled the country under unknown circumstances.
    In the summer of 2028, life brought Ilya back to where he least expected to find himself.
    But now he has a secret, he has to guard with his life and his freedom.
    Secrets, lies, buried truths come to light slowly. The loon calls never sounded lonelier or scarier.
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    This story features mature themes, mental health issues, suicide attempt, delicate context around birth problems, and yes, male pregnancy mentioned with complications.
    The idea of the story was inspired by a post from our Spreadsheet Queen (Wadjilicious), who mentioned a crossover between Heated Rivalry and Wuthering Heights. You need to see the vision and the general idea for this to make sense. I hope you see it.
    I’ll be the first to say that I had a different approach in mind, but Ilya took over and chaos ensued.

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    16 May 2026

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    “You like this.” Ilya said more like a statement than a question.

    “Like what?”

    “When I said that this is something serious.”

    Shane blushed and looked away.

    Ilya gently grabbed Shane's chin and brought his face up to meet Ilya’s eyes.

    “I like it too.”

    OR

    Shane and Ilya don’t hook up until a little later on in their story, but not for lack of trying or interest. When they do finally get together, things move faster and feelings are expressed sooner. But that doesn’t mean there aren’t difficult moments to overcome on the path to their happy ending.

    This story is an exploration of a completely alternative timeline in the Hollanov love story—using a combination of the show and the original Heated Rivalry and Long Game books. There will be pining, yearning, big emotional moments, and angsty roadblocks. With, of course, a very happy ending for our boys.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    In 2006, the Hollander family billeted a player to the Ottawa 67s - Ilya Rozanov, a 15 year old Russian Bostonian with a hockey talent to rival Shane's.
    Years later, they’d once again share a team, and a home: Boston College.

    “Why did you choose to come here? It’s not like you couldn’t have gone anywhere else.”
    Shane remembered his surprise at Ilya’s commitment. The calm of Boston College didn’t exactly fit Ilya’s predisposition.
    Ilya looked thoughtful for a second, underneath the tumult on his face. “Other than the obvious? I don’t know. I think I just felt like this place was where I was meant to go.”
    Shane understood that. After all, he’d felt the same way.
    Ilya gently nudged him with his elbow. "Now you. Why are you here, Canadian boy?”
    The corner of Shane’s lip raised, and he shrugged. “I wanted to be more than hockey. At least, for a little while longer.”
    Ilya’s eyes locked on him, and a small smile reset the lines of Ilya’s face. “You couldn’t have done that in Canada?”
    Shane shrugged again. “Sure, but Canada didn’t have you.”
    Ilya looked down at the ground, and didn’t look back up as he spoke.
    “The NHL didn’t have you.”

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    04 Apr 2026

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    “I’m late,” Ilya finally says.
    “Oh! Yeah, of course, I’m sorry. It was good to see you, man.”
    Man. It’s patronizing.
    “You too.”
    Shane searches his face for a second, eyebrows creased slightly, face an open book just like before. Ilya tries to push past him, tries to see how fast he can forget that this encounter ever happened, but Shane stops him at the last second.
    “Can I give you my number?” he asks, already digging in his pocket for his phone. “We should catch up.”
    Ilya doesn’t want it. He really doesn’t want it. Shane is being polite. He’s being a good boy. He’s saying exactly the type of things you’re supposed to say when you run into someone you haven’t seen in years.

    Nine years after Ilya decided to end things with Shane, he runs back into him. Shane is working as a hockey commentator, while Ilya is married to Svetlana and living in the US as a retired hockey player. Although he knows he shouldn't, he allows himself to get to know Shane again.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    If “don’t marry Svetlana” never happened.

    A canceled passport traps Ilya in a marriage he never wanted, while a lifetime of grief has led him down a path of self-destruction.

    But there is one truth that Ilya cannot outrun:

    Love is not a weakness— and only Hollander can help him believe it.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    There was a time when Ilya believed Scott Hunter's coming out would revolutionize hockey forever— but for every step forward came two steps back.

    When Shane and Ilya meet again late in life, can they make their second chance work?

    OR: Old Man Hollanov Yaoi.

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    Chapters:
    12/12
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    3,294
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    30 Mar 2026

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    27 Mar 2026

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    “I’m tired,” the little girl complains, skating from the group to hug Hollander’s knees.

    Hollander huffs a quiet laugh. “Grandma will be here soon,” he says, picking her up, sitting her perfectly on his hip. She lays her head on his shoulder, and they look so alike, it's startling.

    “Is that—Hollander,” Ilya says with disbelief. Hollander freezes, turning to look at Ilya. His brown eyes are wide, and he looks just as surprised as Ilya feels. “Is that your daughter?”
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    Shane abruptly quits hockey and disappears off the face of the earth without a trace. When Ilya moves to the Centaurs, the last person he expects to see is Shane teaching a bunch of kids how to skate and play hockey with his daughter in tow.

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    23 Mar 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 70

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    Canon divergence where Shane never got a concussion during the Montreal/Boston game in April 2017 and Ilya ended things like he had planned to. Also the Scott/Kip kiss never happens.

    Set 2 years later in 2019 while both Shane and Ilya are trying (and failing miserably) to move on.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
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    229
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    8,126

    22 Mar 2026

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