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Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording.
“Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.”
Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating.
His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next.
I have to see him.
Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now.
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OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...
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12 Jun 2026
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The Worst Time to Meet Your Son’s Boyfriend by Barbidoo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 May 2026
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David Hollander arrives in Montreal with homemade soup, expecting to take care of his son Shane, who’s down with the flu after missing the biggest NHL game of the season.
What he does not expect is finding Shane cuddled in the lap of his greatest hockey rival: Boston Bears captain Ilya Rozanov.
Apparently the NHL’s most legendary rivalry has secretly been a relationship for over a decade.
Now David must process three shocking truths:
his son is gay,
Ilya Rozanov is basically a housewife with pharmacy bags,
and every on-ice fight was apparently foreplay.Series
- Part 5 of Relationship Reveals
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30 May 2026
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biting my tongue swallowing it down by yellobaby
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 May 2026
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Shane can’t look at him. He can’t really look at anyone but he manages to lift his head and stare right back into Troy’s glistening eyes.
“I never had that advantage, Troy. I never got to take it out on anyone, for any of it. All the times I got on that ice to play some hockey and some… fuckwit idiot like Kent, or whoever was calling me slurs— whether they were gay ones or racist ones… I couldn’t just hurl them back and call it a day like you did.”
He swallows hard. He thinks he might be sick a little bit in his mouth.
“You know how fucking lucky you are? To have gotten away with it? They love you, Barrett. This team loves you! You’re fucking celebrated because you overcame this big, terrible thing but for me it’s—”
He thinks about his mom in that very split second. His beautiful, wonderful mom who’d coached him his entire life on how to be polite, how to be well behaved. How to answer to teachers the right way, to coaches, to cops to the press to the general public to his fucking teammates—
He looks away. The fight suddenly drains right out of him and he goes back to his bag.
or: shane decides to confront troy if no one else will
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01 May 2026
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During Shane's first season with the Ottawa Centaurs, he loves his new team and feels much more relaxed than he ever did in Montreal. But there is still a niggling thought inside his head. He still isn't good enough.
4+1 fic.
4 times Shane thinks someone on the Centaurs is telling him he isn't good enough - just like in Montreal.
+1 time Ilya sees the scars Montreal left on Shane and tells his husband he has always been more than good enough. It was Montreal who was never good enough.(Edit with an extra bonus chapter - a few people wanted to see Ilya and Hayden talk about Montreal so that has been added in chapter 3.)
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17 Feb 2026
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The rise and fall of a Cool Party Guy
(aka the Centaurs win the Stanley Cup and Shane gets uncharacteristically drunk to celebrate)
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08 Feb 2026