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    Shane's entire life there has been some missing piece. When they were in his parents living room yesterday it was like a phantom limb had been brought home. The Hollander’s coach was always meant to seat another person, and that person was destined to be Ilya. At least that’s how it felt to Shane.

    Now his parents are coming over for a proper dinner to get to know his boyfriend and there is something still nagging at the back of his mind.

    “What did you and my dad talk about yesterday?” Shane asks, his thumb rubbing small circles against Ilya’s sunkissed thigh. “When I was outside with mom.”

    Or, a missing Cottage Days dinner with the Hollanders after Shane comes out.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    He trains endlessly. He’s young and cocksure. He will push his body as far as humanly possible for this team that has given him a chance at a life out from under his father’s thumb. By the time the pre-season starts he’s both exhausted and so drunk on the freedom of being on his own that he doesn’t know what to do with himself.

    So when he’s out for his morning run and sees a man a few inches shorter than him with ink black hair and an athlete’s build he stumbles.

    Hollander.

    He wants to run to him, tap his shoulder and throw his arms around him. He wants to ask him if things in Montreal are also wonderful and confusing. And sure, maybe he would also like to know if sometimes he thinks of Ilya like how Ilya thinks of him in the middle of the night.

    But then the man turns around and it’s just some guy in a Patriot’s shirt. Ilya resumes his jog at a punishing pace. Maybe if he runs far enough he can pretend he isn’t seeing things that are not there.

    Or, five times Ilya sees Shane in other people and one time he knows he's real.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    “You’ll text when you land, right?” Shane asks as he takes an exit ramp labeled Airport Departures.

    “Yes. Promise.”

    “And you’ll call tonight?” Shane’s throat works over the words, like he still doesn’t trust this new thing between them. Ilya thinks he understands. He also doesn’t know how to trust this love. How can he when it has been trapped in his own heart so long. Neither of them know what the next year will bring. There is so much time before Ilya can have his agent, or his future agent, he will need a new one with no connections to Russia, reach out to Ottawa and hope that they’ll be interested in a future Hall of Fame center. The one thing Ilya is certain of is that he will do everything in his power to make their plan work. He spent his entire adult life lusting after, and then pining for Shane with his whole heart.

    “I will call.” Ilya reaches for the hand Shane has left on the gearshift and threads his fingers through his. He wants to say so much, but he has always been better with touch than words, especially when the only shared language was English. “We will talk every day.”

    Or, There is a year before Ilya can sign with Ottawa, Shane counts down the days until their forever.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    currently this is planned to be 12 one shots, which will get renumbered as i post to be listed in chronological order. it is not necessary to read them in any specific order, as while i have them all outlined i will be writing them in whatever order the muses tell me to.

    these are the final numbers for what is already posted, and i will update this list as i post until the series is complete:

    5. calculating new route

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    02 Jun 2026

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    “Does it annoy you? That I am never prepared?” A memory shot through his mind like a shock of electricity; a familiar voice, disapproving eyes, the word 'lazy' thrown at him with vitriol in both of the languages he spoke, just to make sure he got the point.

    “No,” Shane's response was certain, decisive. “I just wanted a little more time with you. Before you have to leave.”

    Or: Four times Ilya learns what it means to be loved, and one time he realizes that he already knew.

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    31 May 2026