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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    24 Apr 2026

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    hollyadmirals24: Male seeking help improving at oral sex. Clean, ready to learn and willing to host. M only. Strictly platonic. Message for details.
     

    or: shane and ilya are hockey players for the mcgill marauders. after a disastrous night with rose, shane puts a drunken ad on craigslist asking for help with oral sex. his teammate, ilya, replies.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    “I think we need some rules for this year,” Shane admits. He knows it’s not fun or cool. It’s also the only way he’s going to be able to drive away from this ugly ass apartment and not have a panic attack.

    “Like your rules for loading the dishwasher?” Ilya teases, his thumb rubbing a gentle circle on the apple of Shane’s cheek. “No, No you would want something more serious.”

    Once Ilya told him he preferred to have hard conversations in person so that he could reach out and touch Shane. He said it was grounding and made him feel safe. Shane gets it. All of this is less scary when their knees are bumped together and Ilya’s hands are gently holding his head.

    “More like some guardrails to make sure your first year in Ottawa is a success.” It’s a cop out. He wants rules to be sure that come next summer they are just like this with a few more memories thrown in for good measure.

    Or: After a year of living in different countries Ilya has successfully been signed with the Ottawa Centaurs. Now both he and Shane have to learn to navigate what it's means when long distance doesn't involve plane rides and stolen nights while Ilya establishes roots in Shane's boring hometown.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    “Shane Hollander’s having a big gay wedding.”
    Ilya’s ball rocketed sideways into the woods with a crack like a rifle shot; somewhere in the trees, a goose honked in outrage.
    “Jesus Christ,” Tyler said.
    “Wow,” Marly said. “That was…what the fuck was that, Roz?”
    Ilya was gripping the club so hard his knuckles had gone white. “Bad swing.”
    “That wasn’t a bad swing, that was like a physics-defying swing. I didn’t know you could make a ball go in that direction. You okay?”
    “Fine.” Hollander was getting married. Getting gay married. Who the fuck was Hollander marrying? He wasn’t even… Ilya cleared his throat, shoved his biggest club back in the bag, noted distantly that his hands were shaking. “Hollander is gay?”

    OR: Ten years after the Tampa Bay All-Star Game, Ilya Rozanov crashes Shane Hollander's wedding

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    05 Apr 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    23 Mar 2026