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    Shane has married Ilya, a known chaos monster, with a penchant for fast cars and designer clothes. Shane has spent his life making sure he was financially responsible. Now it's time to merge these two different approaches to money management; It does not go the way Shane thinks it will.

    They had been married for 32 days.

    And now was the big conversation: estate planning, their assets, and what combining them would look like.

    Shane had found a financial planner. Had set the appointment.

    He was, after all, Shane Hollander; he had approached his financial future with all of the key characteristics of a Hollander. His mom had guided his career, negotiating sizable contracts for him, and his father worked for the Treasury. It was in his blood.

    Ilya, meanwhile, had approached today's meeting with the same organizational energy he brought to most things in his life, except hockey: confident, yet chaotic, and generally not stressed out about whether things would work out in his favor.

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    25 May 2026

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    What happens when you're faced with the reality that love is not always enough to keep everyone going?

    Set post The Long Game (book 6).
    TW for suicide, descriptions of suicidal thoughts, depression.

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    19 May 2026

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    In which I put Hollanov into SituationsTM as if they were living in a procedural TV show land like Criminal Minds, The Rookie, Castle or Bones. Where, yes, hockey players attract a lot of trouble and then sort of end up solving crimes to save each other’s lives.

    ✨ Long live the power of looooooove and crazy shenanigans ✨

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    14 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 82

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    Svetlana’s gaze was unwavering. “Gregori killed Irina. Not quickly. Not cleanly. But he killed her.”
    A beat.
    “He killed her the same way you are killing Ilya.”
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    After Svetlana figures out who Ilya's secret Jane is she joins them for lunch.

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    01 May 2026

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    Jane: Are you seriously using your dog’s twitter account to tell Hayden to go fuck himself?

    Lily: that was anya

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    Unfortunately not everyone is supportive of Shane and Ilya's relationship. Fortunately, Twitter is a great place to defend your man.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Sets during the COVID-19 pandemic.

    Yuna Hollander is tired, cautious, and quietly prejudiced. Ilya Rozanov is sick, far from home, and far more fragile than she’s prepared for.

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    18 Mar 2026

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    sick ilya sad yuna i die

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    “So. That’s it? Those are the rules?” Hayden asked. “Don’t go through your texts or photos, keep up with your workouts and diet, and listen to everything Yuna says, without question.”

    Shane seemed to be thinking about it, pausing a second. All of a sudden, he looked up at Hayden, again with that intense anxiety face.

    “And most importantly, do not talk to Ilya Rozanov. Ever. No matter what.” Shane said, “Avoid him. Don’t even look at him. OK?”

    Hayden nodded, and resisted the urge to roll his eyes. Like he even needed to be told that. Besides, Shane had been avoiding Ilya Rozanov for his entire career. How hard could it be?

    OR a well-meaning witch bodyswaps Shane and Hayden (to teach them about the power of friendship) the day before the 2017 All Stars Game.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    Ilya has been very good today. Shane decides to give him a reward.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    “What is this ‘ball and chain’?” Ilya frowned.

    Ilya's teammate grinned. “Wife. Girlfriend. Nagging you. Controlling. No fun allowed.”

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    23 Feb 2026

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    “You like it, right?” Shane whispered against his lips.

    “Hm?” Ilya tried hard to focus on Shane’s words but Shane felt too good, the pressure of his ass on Ilya’s crotch too maddeningly distracting.

    Shane leaned in so that his mouth was now right on Ilya’s ear, stilling his movements. “I said,” he breathed hotly, “you like it? Being my dog?”

    And this was new. The words sent an electric shock down Ilya’s spine, making him involuntarily thrust up into Shane. Ilya swallowed, closing his eyes and nodding furiously, as Shane nibbled on his ear lobe and sucked sweetly at the skin there.

    “Speak,” Shane said simply, the same tone he used when talking to Chiron or Anya. When talking to dogs.

    “Fuck,” Ilya choked out. “Yes, da, yes, I like being your dog.”

    or, Ilya discovers a new kink about himself.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Shane's eyes squeeze closed again. “We had reason to put rules in place. Protocol. If ever—if it got to a place where, if he was ever feeling like he might—"

    Hayden’s body understands before his mind catches up. His blood runs cold for a second, stuck on the scrunch of Shane’s face, the clench of his fist, how desperate he’d been to see Rozanov—Ilya—just now. To make sure that he was okay. Here, in person.

    Not hurt. Alive.

    “Oh,” Hayden hears himself say distantly. “Oh, fuck, Shane.”

    --

    or, Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    What if Ilya's depression got worse before it got better?

    Set after Shane and Ilya's fight in The Long Game.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov should be the happiest man on Earth right now. He should be floating on clouds, but why does it feel like he's on a free fall to the ground?

    He's got everything he's ever dreamed of: his handsome, polite, sexy, hockey's golden boy boyfriend, future in-laws who love him like their own, and a team who desperately want to be his friends. He can't wait to play great hockey, retire with his boyfriend, and marry him. Maybe they'll even have kids of their own. Spend their days at the cottage wrapped in love and sunshine for the rest of their lives.

    Yet, the only dream that he remembers, the one that haunts him daily, is the one of his mother. His mother's pale arms reach out to him. Her embrace was colder than any lonely night. One day, maybe he'll just hug her back.

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    15 Jan 2026

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    Alexei is dead. Anastasia is his. And Ilya has no idea how to be a parent, a captain, and a heartbroken man all at once.

    The only thing harder than keeping a five-year-old alive might be keeping himself together.

     

    [set after shane walks out on ilya in episode 4]

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    14 Jan 2026

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    Ilya gets injured during the Centaurs hot streak and spirals. Shane takes care of him, and has to get creative about it (aka they both have to grapple with some role reversals + Ilya gets railed for a change)

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    11 Jan 2026

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    The photos leak on a Wednesday. Ilya sets his life and career on fire on Sunday, mostly out of spite. On Monday, he is the first out queer player in the NHL.

    Nobody handles the ensuing circus well, least of all Scott Hunter.

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    04 Jan 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 80

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    5+1

    Five times Ilya almost cries in front of Shane (and the first time Shane catches on).

    Bonus: Scott Hunter does NOT have time to deal with a sick Russian, but Kip might murder him if he leaves Rozanov to fend for himself right now.

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    03 Jan 2026

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    Ilya wanted to get up, shake it off, keep playing, score his fucking hat trick. But it felt like his body wasn't his own. Like he was a marionette with its strings caught off. Gravity increased by tenfold it seemed and Ilya was too tired to resist it.

    The sword was still in his chest and Ilya could vividly imagine in his head the blood pulling beneath him. But as he looked down there was nothing but white ice all around him.

    In his last moments of consciousness, just like every night before falling asleep, Ilya thought of Shane. His lovely shane with his beautiful freckles.
    As ilya’s world succumbed to darkness he had just enough time to think “I would take a sword to the chest for him” ,then everything went black and Ilya could no longer feel.

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    Or, Ilya should have known one day his body wont be able to bear Ilya's awful habits and sad life, he just didnt expect to have a fucking heart attack on the ice.

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    03 Jan 2026

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    Sometimes, late at night, he catches himself sitting still on the couch. Hours pass without him noticing.

    He thinks about his mother then. Not about the way she died, but the way she lived on her worst days. The way she would sit for hours, staring at nothing. The way he would sit in the corner of her room, quiet, and afraid to leave her alone.

    He shakes himself out of it. He’s embarrassed by the comparison. He’s not like that. He’s functioning. He’s successful. And most importantly, he’s loved.

    He’s fine.

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    31 Dec 2025

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    31 Dec 2025

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