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    Freshman athlete Shane Hollander begins an illicit affair with his older, married professor, Ilya Rozanov.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    so good

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    It starts, as many things do, slowly. He quietly stops seeing Galina. He lies about taking his medication. The medication hasn’t been helping anyway. Then it’s Shane noticing he isn’t doing well, and begging Ilya to talk to him. There is nothing to say.

     

    Objectively, everything is fine. His life is amazing. He’s married to the love of his life, they play for the same hockey team, they don’t have to hide their love anymore. They have a dog and a place that is home. He has a family with Shane and his parents. He has friends with the centaurs and Svetlana. On paper, his life is amazing.

     

    The thought definitively doesn’t help the guilt he feels when he holds the handful of painkillers.

    Or: Ilya commits suicide. But when he dies, he finds himself as a ghost and is forced to watch Shane grapple with his death.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    heartbreaking

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    “I’m sorry I’m not him,” Shane says, looking away.

    “Who?”

    “Future me. Whoever you fell in love with.” What’s unsaid hangs in the air: whoever fell in love with you. Because this Shane – 2010 Shane – doesn’t love him. Is amused by their daily lessons, comforted by his presence, even grateful. But love?

    “That’s the thing, Shane,” Ilya says. His eyes are shining. “You are, right now, exactly who I fell in love with.”

    In 2031, Shane wakes up in the hospital certain that it's 2010. Ilya is there to remind him of the two decades he's missed and the life they've built along the way.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    bangerrr amazing.

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    Shane only downloads Grindr because Rose forces him to.

    Matching with a beautiful blond man who looks like trouble definitely wasn't part of the plan.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    His entire body felt tense as the door was pushed open. He trained his eyes on the floor, monologuing before he could stop himself,

    “Just so you know, my buddies paid for this dance for me and I’m sure you’re very nice and very pretty and good at what you do but I’m actually gay so you can just- Do what you need to do but I don’t want you to be offended because I’m not as into this as you’re probably…usually…used to…”

    He trailed away as he looked up, and met the eyes of the very tall, very broad, very handsome man leaning against the doorframe.

    They stared at each other, and Shane blinked, struck dumb.

    Or, the night of JJ's bachelor party, Shane is forced into a lap dance he very much does not want. Until he does, and everything changes.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    so cute