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Dazai has long since known that he'd die either by his own hand or Chuuya's.
He just never thought the end would come like this.
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'They sure seemed to admire you a lot. “Shall I carry your arrows for you, Arahabaki-sama?”, “Shall I prepare a meal for you once we get back, Arahabaki-sama?” “Shall I kiss your ass Arahabaki-sa--’
‘Shut up!’ the man roared. In the dimly lit tent, there was no mistaking the markings on his skin had indeed started glowing red this time.
‘Mh…now we’re getting somewhere…’ Dazai hummed. ‘Did I hit a nerve, Arahabaki?’
‘Chuuya.’ the man finally breathed out. ‘My name is Chuuya.’
‘So what makes them call you by a different name? Are you deceiving them?’
‘I wish it was that simple…’ he huffed.
Dazai looked at the person in front of him and grinned.
‘I like the name Chuuya much better.’
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Or: Dazai tries to kill himself in Chuuya's forest. Chuuya isn't letting it happen.
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21 May 2026
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At fourteen, Dazai is the one to find Chuuya after the lab explosion.
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He watches Chuuya fall asleep, slow and soft, in small bits. He is so beautiful, and he is mine. All mine.
I am the first person he smiled at.
I am the first person who said his name.
I am the first person who has held him like this.
He is mine. He will always be mine now, after these things.
Dazai thinks, for a moment, that he might not ever get to feel things, or see the world the way most people do, or find a reason to live. But he can live for this, for him. For this boy. He does not care about birds or parks or trees or people, does not feel all that much when he sees the sunrise or sunset or the stars and the moon. He does not like dogs or children. He does not like the world.
But he likes Chuuya. He likes the way Chuuya looks when he is looking at all these things.
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19 May 2026
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How close, Osamu thinks, rope around his neck in his empty dorm. How close can I get to death before he finds me?
The thought is tinged with apathy and excitement and curiosity. Osamu kicks the stool out from under his legs and starts counting.
Or: Suicidal Man finds care and acceptance in local Tiger Boy and has trouble dealing
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- Part 2 of Beast Under the Sunlight
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15 May 2026
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In·ef·fa·ble
/inˈefəb(ə)l/
adjective
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too great or extreme to be expressed or described in words:
Ineffable PartnersRead in order or it probably won't make much sense!
AU: Dazai leaves the Port Mafia and takes Chuuya with him. Very smutty, mild Mori bashing (doesn't occur in all of my works but was convenient for this series sorry lmao).
Recommended for 18+ but you do you since you've been warned. Contains mentions of suicide, depression, anxiety, past child abuse, past sexual abuse, sexual trauma, manipulation, suicide attempts, self harm, eating disorders, trauma, PTSD, suicidal ideation, and other dark themes (not always consistently prevalent). Please be safe and mindful of yourself! None of the warnings really occur between SKK.
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