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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    07 Jun 2026

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    06 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 26
    Sitationship shane traded to Boston
    Lives with Ilya
    Love yous, new 7 yr contracts

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    Shane Hollander is a university student trying his best. He is managing three jobs, two majors, and one sexuality crisis that threatens to upend his hockey career before it even starts. When his best friend, Rose, begs him to come with her to an exclusive BDSM club to let loose and experiment, Shane cannot believe it when he caves to her demands and agrees. Oh and it just so happens that unbeknownst to Shane the club is owned by a Russian mob boss. But really, what could go wrong?

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    Or the one where organized crime boss Ilya meets hockey-playing uni student Shane and big feelings and kinky shenanigans unfold

    Updates 2-3x per week <3

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    05 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch28
    Shane in uni
    Ilya older, Bratva owns club
    Boyfriends
    Shane just found out about mob

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    This boy would kill him. This gorgeous, precious and kinky boy will be his downfall, and Ilya will not even resist.

    “Yes moya lyubov. My little slut, only mine. No one else can have you, no one else is allowed to even look at you, yes? Only me.”

    “Yes, God. Only ever you.” Shane whined, throwing an arm over his face.

    “No no no, none of that now.” Ilya firmly pulled his arm away from his face, before pulling both of them up above his head, holding them there with one hand, “You cannot say such filth, and then get shy on me Hollander.”

    OR

    The Hollanov BDSM Mafia AU fic that my depraved brain has come up with.

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    05 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 17
    Ilya bratva boss
    Shane uni student / bartender
    Boyfriends
    Alexi kidnapped Shane, alexi now dead
    Ilya just met parents

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    Set around the end of 2023/early 2024, a married Ilya and Shane confront Shane's recurring fantasies by seeking out somewhere to explore watching and being watched, and discover a private club in Ottawa called Le Chaton. They get more than they expected when they find the right audience, and Shane winds up understanding the benefits of being seen.

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    03 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 60

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    It's been three years since Shane was kidnapped in Montreal before Sochi, and he had discovered the completely healthy coping mechanism of not thinking about it.

    He had other, more pressing issues: a third Stanley Cup run, a secret marriage, a murderous fan base, and free agency next year.

    The whole kidnapping thing was easy to ignore now. He could almost believe it was just a story that happened to someone else.

    Or: Shane and Ilya are just trying to move past it all, and the past says no.

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    01 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 11 br />
    Shane kidnapped before Sochi
    Shane raiders
    Ilya Ottawa

    Kip kidnapped

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    After becoming a Boston Raider, Shane was still bracing, waiting for something to go wrong.
    Eventually, however, he realizes he doesn’t have to.
    Ilya has some feelings about it too.

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    31 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 29
    Shane joined raiders
    Live together, boyfriends

  8. Public Bookmark 73

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    They were better now.

    They’d figured things out, said the things they needed to say and put the labels on each other that Shane had always wanted. 

    ... but it still wasn’t easy.

    The distance alone was enough to make things complicated, but it wasn’t just that. They both carried things with them. Shane knew he did, and he knew Ilya did too.
     

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    OR: We catch up with Shane and Ilya (& Beans!) and see how things are going. Dinner with Hayden should be... fun?

    Sequel to: we didn't even kiss... so i kissed him instead

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    29 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 2
    Post Vegas Shane hooks up with Hayden
    Now with Ilya - who does not like Hayden
    Dog beans

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    After an emotional slip in the locker room, Montreal does not take the news that Shane Hollander is gay very well. Management think they can force out their own captain by bringing in Ilya Rozanov: his rival and known womanizing asshole to the team. Unaware that Ilya is in fact the lifeline Shane needs.

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    28 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 4
    Shane out as gay to team
    Ilya traded to Montreal

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    His eyes land on Ilya. 

    For one brief second, Ilya thinks Hollander is going to stop, step out of the walkway, say something. Do anything. 

    Ilya's hand twitches at his side, absurdly, like it's waiting for a handshake that has not happened yet. Like it's preparing for the contact. 

    Instead, Hollander gives him the smallest half-nod, barely there, and walks into the arena. 

     

    OR: One bad World Juniors drops Ilya Rozanov to sixth overall in the draft and Shane Hollander goes first. Rozanov decides he’s going to spend his career proving the league wrong. What he doesn’t plan on is becoming fixated on Hollander in the process — on the way he plays, and the way he watches Rozanov right back. Somewhere along the way, it stops being about the league’s attention and starts being about keeping Hollander’s.

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    28 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 20
    Shane in Boston
    Ilya in Toronto
    Hooked up earlier, friendly in public

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    After a viral photo outs Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov while they're still busy pretending their years-long situationship is mostly just sex, the fallout gets complicated fast. The world reacts badly. Their teams react worse. Ilya's future in North America starts to look alarmingly fragile, and Shane, who has never met a disaster he didn't try to control into submission, throws himself into fixing what can still be fixed.

    Ilya has spent his whole life being wanted for the wrong reasons and discarded for the right ones. Shane has spent his whole life believing that if he is careful enough, good enough, controlled enough, he can keep disaster from reaching the people he loves.

    A practical solution emerges, then a house, then rings.

    Somehow, by the time they say their vows, both of them are certain they are the only one who means them.

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    28 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 5

    2016 situationship pre tuna melt
    Outed
    Ilya goes to Ottawa, pre wedding

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    Shane Hollander has built himself around routine, his life blood is hockey. Struggling to understand his team off the ice and the people around him, he carves out a few silent hours to himself. It's just him and his skates. But the hard fought peace is fragile, like cracks in too thin ice. It only takes a slight impact to shatter. Shane is fighting to hold his team and himself together as everything comes crashing down around him.

    Someone hacks into Rose Landry's phone in a club, they then release the images of Shane's texts online and all hell breaks loose. Shane is left to pick up the pieces. Ilya makes some choices in the aftermath that change everything. Shane decides to stop hiding and Ilya is a possessive asshole who makes it everyone else's problem. With far less reason to hide himself anymore, Shane begins to show more of who he really is behind the polite, media worthy façade. They instead find a team who are ready to fight the world for each other and a found family that has far reaching threads.

    Maybe Shane can have both Hockey and Ilya. The world will just have to deal with it.

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    28 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 68
    Boston=gay avengers
    Shane &ilya adopting Levi & Luca

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    It turned out the hockey season was a lot more hectic with a full social life in the BDSM club scene and a fiancé who he could never quite escape from. Not to mention wedding planning? God, Shane was in over his head. All he wanted to do was shut his mind off and be a kitty.

    sequel to 'is just ten year plan to fuck'

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    27 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch2
    Shane=kitten

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    23 May 2026

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    Ch 93

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    Shane Hollander is horrifically injured during playoff game against the Boston Raiders. His face will never look the same. Ilya wants to take care of Shane during his recovery. Ilya wants Shane to stay in Boston. Will he?

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    22 May 2026

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    Ch 17

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    The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.

    They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.

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    21 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 23

  17. Public Bookmark 87

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    “As long as you leave by midnight. That’s when then floor opens up to reveal the sex pit”
    Troy had flashed back to Kyle’s words when he read the note included with the invite. He could not help but laugh out loud. He had been terrified that night when Ilya took him to The Kingfisher for the first time. When he ended up coming out to Ilya on the walk back to the hotel. If you had told Troy back then that the sex pit was about to become a reality, he probably would have ran away screaming.

    Kip organises a surprise party for Scott's birthday, but the real party starts at midnight.

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    21 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 6

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    One delayed flight. One closing airport bar. One truth or dare game that gets significantly out of hand.
    Ilya Rozanov came to his ex-girlfriend's wedding to prove he was over it. Shane Hollander came to his best friend's wedding to prove he was fine. They were both lying, but they didn't know that about each other yet.

    Then they had to share a room.

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    21 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 7

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    Shane and Ilya try experimenting in the bedroom.

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    20 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Chapter 5

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    In room 1410, Ilya Rozanov is ready to walk out the door after successfully getting his 19 year old hockey rival into bed. He knew how to make this moment happen and he knows what they have to be to each other now that it's over. But as he turns the doorknob to leave, he's stopped with questions he never expected. And giving Shane Hollander what he needs in that moment will change everything.

    There's a lot of explicit content but I try to note which chapters are SFW vs NFSW.

    Covers the first two years of their rookie seasons (which is mostly skipped over in the show/books). Canon divergent from the first hookup seen in HR s01ep01. Most things are from the show but the timeline is a mix of both; Hunter and Marleau are aged up per the show instead of as young as they are in the books. (Also, Shane and Ilya don't wait *two years*, they stick to the book timeline. IYKYK.)

    Please note this will the first in a series; you can subscribe to the whole series as well so you don't miss anything :)

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    19 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ch 25

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