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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    04 Mar 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    01 Mar 2026

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    Just as him and Ilya have finally got their shit together, Shane's world is turned upside down.

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    “What if it’s bad?”

    “Then it is bad.” Ilya says. “And then we deal with it.”

    “We?” Shane pulls back just enough to look at him.

    “Yes.” Ilya says, without hesitation. “This is very much we situation.”

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    27 Feb 2026

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    "After an hour of breathing exercises, retracing what he had learned about himself and others, he opened his Notes app:

    want:
    Ilya
    Stanley Cups
    Awards

    not doing:
    Dissociating
    Making myself small to make others comfortable
    Waiting ten fucking years

    Watching the clock, the time he had been waiting for was finally there.

    Time to remind Ilya where the smoking area was."

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    In 2021, Shane and Ilya are sent back to 2008. And they are determined to do it better this time.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Knowing Ilya would be home any minute, Shane hastily splashes water on his face, slapping his cheeks lightly, hoping to wash away some of the weariness and bring some color back to his cheeks. He chokes down two ibuprofen, hoping they’ll blunt the pain enough to keep the night from unraveling.
    Then, steeling himself, he heads back downstairs, ready to pretend everything’s fine. Because tonight, it has to be.

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    Shane gets hurt during a game, but tries to hide it from Ilya in hopes it won't ruin their precious time together.

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    25 Feb 2026