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  1. Public Bookmark 85

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    a collection of cut story lines, additional scenes, and random shit that didn't make it into the main story. I would Not Recommend reading as a standalone unless you really want to.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Shane hates losing control and the last several months-years if he's being honest-have been nothing but him trying to grab onto any choice he can make for himself. In the wake of being outed, exiled from the team he's dedicated his life to, and losing everything he's worked so hard for just because of who he fell in love with, Shane does the only thing he can: he runs until he feels like he's far enough away that he can't hear anyone else's opinions.

    It's time for Shane to make a decision, just once, he wants to choose something for himself.

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    28 May 2026

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    “Shane fires back, “We’ve told you again and again not to use your key or walk into our home without warning unless it was an emergency.”

    “Why is this coming up now? It’s never been an issue before.”

    “It’s always been an issue, I’ve just never pushed back before.””

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    “You know, there are a lot of kids that look up to you—“

    It’s the refrain of Shane’s life. Everything circles back to this: a lot of kids looking up to you. That’s why you need to spend your summers doing ad campaigns. That’s why you need to let a social media manager handle your every interaction online. That’s why we need to sit here after family dinner with flash cards rehearsing the different ways you’ll answer reporters’ questions after you face Boston next week, and, oh, when we’re done, let’s do some French vocabulary flashcards, too, because it’s important to the Francophone fans that you’re thinking about them. There are lots of Asian Francophones in Quebec, Shane. Almost 13% of primary schoolers are of Asian descent, compared to less than 4% of hockey players. Isn’t that pathetic?

    As if Shane doesn’t know that it’s pathetic. As if Shane doesn’t know what he fought through to get here.

    Abruptly, Shane is furious.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    The author's only half decent fic

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    24 May 2026

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    It is December, and Scott has been out for long enough to pretend to be used to it, and things are not perfect but they’re fucking good, and Ilya Rozanov is at his apartment for dinner—has been for over an hour—and he’s still waiting so stupidly hopefully to introduce a boyfriend who very, very clearly isn’t coming.

    (Or: studies on coming out, learning patience, one-sided conversations, and other absurdist waiting games.)

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    22 May 2026

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    “ That’s the thing, isn’t it? The heart of the issue?

    You can be as brave and strong as anything; you can hold up the weight of the world on your shoulders without flinching. You can be respectful and just as powerful. You can be a hero, you can be a role model. You can be a man peers look up to, a man that kids want to grow up to be one day, a man that superiors can profit off.

    You can be all that and more—and it’s never going to be enough. It’s never going to be enough if you are different, because they will take advantage of your existence but they will never, ever love you.”