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  1. Public Bookmark 86

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    Shane is admitted against his will after his world becomes too loud to survive.

    Ilya has already learned that survival and living are not the same thing.

    Forced to share a room in an adolescent psychiatric ward, two boys with very different kinds of damage learn that understanding can arrive in unexpected places - and that healing is rarely gentle.

    Or : Shane gets assigned the angry Russian boy with a history of fighting with roommates, Ilya gets stuck with the anxious Canadian who stares too much, and somehow an involuntary psychiatric admission becomes the place where they find friendship, understanding, and eventually love.

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    16 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 15

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    Shane is panicked and locks himself alone into the bathroom to try and deal with it. Ilya is a good husband about it.
    The Ilya is depressed about his bad childhood and misses his mama. Shane is a good husband about it.

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    14 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 57

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    Ilya had never thought being on the same team as Shane would end up more complicated than being rivals.

    The Ilya of ten years ago would probably have punched his present self and told him this was a stupid problem. But that Ilya had nothing to lose—what the fuck did he know?

    Or: Ilya tries to have one difficult conversation without becoming his father. Shane tries to fix the entire problem by fixing himself.

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    14 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    Shane gasped and stumbled backwards. “Three weeks? You decided-” his hands flew to his mouth. “How could you do this without talking to me? This is what? To punish me because I won’t come out on your timeline?”

    Ilya felt a stab of anger. “You won’t come out on any timeline!”

    Shane blinked at him. “I literally drove here tonight because I wanted to know if you would accept six to twelve months!” 

    “A timeline,” he barked. “This is our lives, Shane. I want to be with you fully now. I know you are scared, but you need to be brave, and I am so deeply fucking unhappy being your dirty little secret.”

    “That’s not fair Ilya, it’s going to be complicated for me. I’m already the only Asian captain in the league! The media, sponsors, the Voyageurs? It’s going to need to be carefully managed-”

    Or: After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya loses faith in the idea that Shane will come out quickly and decides to make a wild move and agrees on a trade to Vancouver. Can these two idiots in love find their way back to each other?

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    14 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 48

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    “Can’t believe I’m selling fuckin’ Shane Hollander drugs,” the dealer shook his head, a cigarette between his teeth, “crazy.”

    “You’re making it sound worse than it is,” Shane mumbled as he handed the dealer a wad of cash, “they’re just classification suppressants.”

    He shrugged, handing over the bottle of pills, “still. Same time next three months, Hollander?”

    “Yeah, thanks,” Shane mumbled half heartedly, quickly tucking the bottle in his pocket.

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    Shane’s issues with suppressing his little headspace and his suppression pills finally failing. Ilya finds out, of course. He always does.

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    14 Jun 2026