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    Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.

    He can just exist here.

    Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.

    (Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)

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    11 Jun 2026

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    It’s almost like — like Buck’s holding a possible thing in his hands, fragile and fledgling, born too early. It’s not the first time he’s felt this way, with Eddie. It’s happened before, mostly in kitchens.

    “Did that guy tell you the name of the suite he put us in?”

    The corner of Eddie’s mouth lifts. There, Buck supposes, is his answer.

    “Yeah. Honeymooners, huh? Should we tell him about our disaster of a trip?”

    His stomach lurches. God. Eddie’s taking this in stride; Buck should be thankful for it. Instead, he’s afraid he’ll be sick all over their shoes.

    or: a pining buck has to navigate the Emotional Saw Trap that is the road trip back from new mexico. eddie, quite literally, comes along for the ride.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Buck knows Theo loves Eddie. What he tries very hard not to think about is how much he loves Eddie too.

    A bedtime crisis, a late-night visit to the 118, and one unexpectedly domestic morning later, Buck finds himself running out of reasons not to say the things he’s been keeping to himself for years.

    Or, the one where Theo gets his goodnight, and Buck gets everything he’s always wanted.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.

    The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “He—He had a nightmare,” Buck says. Eddie can tell he’s tugging at his hair. “He was asleep for barely an hour, and now he won’t stop crying. The thunder scares him.”

    Before Eddie can ever answer, Theo’s cries interrupt him. His voice wails out a sad, “EDDIE!”

    Eddie pauses. “Did he just say my name?”

    On the other line, Buck’s breath hitches. Eddie pulls the comforter off himself, already springing into action to find his shoes and car keys.

    Still, Buck doesn’t reply. Theo’s sobs are even more earsplitting through the phone. “I want EDDIE!”

    “He’s—” Buck sucks in a breath. “He’s asking for you.”

    OR: Theo can’t sleep because of the storm. Buck calls Eddie and Christopher for their help.

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    09 Jun 2026