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    It's Fall of 2014 and Ilya Rozanov has cut all ties with Russia. But there's no such thing as a clean break, and leaving isn't as simple as never going back.
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    Basically a very self-indulgent fic about how hard it would be for Ilya to actually move on from the pain of the past and to go no contact with his family in a timeline where Grigori is still alive. Also, Ilya deserves to be known and loved by more people than just Shane and Sveta. Forced/Found Family here we come.
    *Sequel to my canon-divergence fic "To only ever know the cold" (go read that first or this won't make sense!)

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander never got that concussion, and Ilya Rozanov breaks up with him. Shortly after, Shane suffers a career ending injury. They don’t speak again.

    Of course, stories don’t end like that. At least not theirs. When Shane adopts a little girl with familiar curls and deep blue eyes, Shane writes letters to Ilya, imagining he was with him, raising the girl together.

    Movers get things mixed up. Letters get sent. And after 4 years of no contact, Ilya moves to Ottawa to see Shane again. The only question is—will Shane let him in? Or is he still just as scared as he was in 2017?

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    30 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    23 May 2026

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    “So,” Shane started out, pushing half a strawberry around his plate, leaving a pink slimy trail in its wake. His eyes were down when he spoke, as usual, but they flicked up to find Ilya’s after a moment. “Um. I know it’s early, but I have a birthday gift for you. Well,” Shane bit his lip. “It’s not, like, a gift, I guess. Not physical.” 

    Ilya’s eyebrows raised, and he painted on a curious smile, pointing at his chest. 

    “For me? A gift?”

     

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    or, ilya's first vacation with the hollanders. shane has a few surprises for him.

    (takes place immediately after the conclusion of dana street)

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    21 May 2026

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    A snowstorm strands the Boston Bears in Montreal with not enough hotel rooms and nowhere to go in their rival’s city.
    On a reckless impulse, Ilya volunteers to stay with Shane Hollander.
    His teammates think it’s a joke.
    Shane plays along.
    No one knows they were in the same bed just hours ago.

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    19 May 2026