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“I didn’t keep most of the memories. Other people’s memories. I get flashes of big things, births, deaths. Except about you.”
Carol feels the confusion slip onto her face. Nervousness creeps up her spine again. “Me?”
“I know everything that anybody has ever thought about you, Carol. Every memory. Every feeling. Helen. Your ex-girlfriends. Your dentist. It’s like I have a Carol encyclopedia in my head.”
Carol had thought that she was done experiencing fresh horrors. What a nightmare it is to realize that she is not. “Oh, god.” She says.
“Oh, god,” Zosia agrees.
After they manage to break Zosia free of the hive, Zosia and Carol try to navigate the field of landmines that is their relationship.
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03 Jan 2026
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Everything that Zosia does now is simply more than it was before; uglier, louder, especially crooked. She tugs Carol’s hair a little too sharply where the hive’s touch would have been calculated and gentle. Her knee jabs Carol’s ribs. When Carol comes back up to kiss her again, leaving her breast covered with love bites and her own mouth swollen, their teeth clack.
Oh god, it’s all so much more—how had Carol not realized that there was more to have?
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It’s weird, the way Robby’s sizing her up, like he’s figuring out the angles of approach, running differentials in his head.
Thirty-two-year-old doctor, lonely and stubborn and needy. Complicated, closed-off, grieving. Does she want to be fingered? Eaten out? Fucked into the mattress with her head buried in a pillow so she can forget who he is?
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- Part 1 of i can no longer live by thinking
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19 Jul 2025
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Robby leans back against the bed, tilting his head towards the ceiling. “I don’t have a best friend,” he says.
“Oh, right, I forgot. You’re too emotionally withholding to let anybody get too close.” She spits the words out like she’s joking, through a half-smile, but they bite anyway.
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“Robby force you to take a break?” he asks when she’s close enough to not have to yell.
“Yeah.”
“Me too,” he huffs. “Like he’s my superior or something. Asshole.”
Samira laughs, bending down to put her coffee down, balancing her sandwich on the lid, and then leans her forearms on the railing, far enough away to still be able to look at the side of his face, but close enough that she feels a little more confident she’ll be able to do something if he… Well. “Should you be sitting over there?” she asks, staring at the slight slope of his nose, the shadow of his eyelashes across on the top of his freckled cheekbone.
“Probably not,” he answers in a casual tone. “At least I’m sitting.”
That doesn’t comfort her very much, but she figures there’s no point in fighting him on it, so she turns and sits down with her back against the warm metal, mirroring him. “You want half of my sandwich?” she offers, twisting her upper body to hold it out to him.
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- Part 1 of let light be light
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11 Jun 2025
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Need to come back and pick a fav line but it's probably the one about the nicotine patch
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Samira's had her whole life mapped out since she was thirteen. You know what they say about best-laid plans.
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15 May 2025
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"I would miss you every day, but I already do, so."
He shrugged helplessly. As if he hadn't just detonated a bomb between them.
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“I promise I’m not stalking you,” Samira says straight away, without even knowing she was going to.
Abbot raises his eyebrows and says, “I didn’t think you were, especially considering that we arrived after you both times.”
So he’d noticed, Samira thinks, and then tries to not think it.
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23 Apr 2025
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There's a scene in this where Abbot helps her at mini golf that I want to drown in