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    Something was wrong. A wave of protectiveness swept up within him before he stamped on it hard, unleashing a powerful strike at the goal on the assist automatically. He didn’t even bother to look to see if it went in, his eyes reorienting themself to where Hollander was shrugging off a medic. 

    It was his Dom side, he knew. Latching onto someone it thought was his and wanting to save them from the world. But Hollander wasn’t his. He was a fun hook up, and interesting company once you got to know him a bit, but not his

    Ilya hasn't seen Hollander since Vegas, and the first time they meet on the ice, months later, Hollander's playing is awful. Ilya's a Dom, a high level one, but as far as he knows Hollander's a Null, no designation. Doesn't need headspace. Doesn't Scene. Doesn't Drop.

    But Hollander is Dropping. Has Dropped. And no one else seems to notice. So Ilya steps in without really thinking things through.

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    I know no hockey. I have seen the TV series, read The Long Game, and this is something that came out.

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    06 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 31

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    "Hollander?" Ilya answers. 

    Silence.

    Breathing.

    Then:

    "Can you come get me? I’m in Boston." 
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    Shane and Ilya aren't together. In fact Shane has a boyfriend he can happily be open with, but when Ilya discovers that the relationship is abusive, he has to do everything he can to make Shane get away.

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    06 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 24

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    Shane Hollander drunk dials his fiancé whose phone was commandeered by the Ottawa Centaurs the second they saw "Jane" flash across the screen.
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    For all he teases Shane about being the most boring man on the planet, it's really what Ilya loves most about him. With Shane, there is a certain security in the boring-ness of it all. Ilya knows that before his game, Shane put his right sock on before his left and drank his disgusting green smoothie, and Ilya knows that, win or lose, he will end up curled up in his hotel bed going over game footage, analyzing every move he made. He also knows that through all of this, the weight of a ring will sit on a chain around his neck. While its a seemingly newer addition to the boring routine, its a reminder of Ilya's favorite constant in Shane's life; the fact that through every step in his day for the past 11 years he has loved Ilya Rozanov.

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    06 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 5

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    Shane Hollander starts his freshman year of college at The University of Toronto, there he meets his best friend Hayden Pike, who he shares a dorm with, and Ilya Rozanov.

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    04 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 39

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    After the Boxing Day fight, they don't talk it out. There's no crash, no final words over instagram. Just a letter on a coffee table saying "I'm done" and a blocked number.
    Shane's world crashes around him.
    Now it's 7 years later. Shane is retiring, reminded of everything he and Ilya planned. After an off the cuff comment at his retirement press conference he hears from Ilya, for the first time since the fight, asking to go out for drinks.
    How bad could this be?

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    04 Jun 2026