bemydoctor
Fandoms
- Stargate Atlantis (33)
- Doctor Who (4)
- Doctor Who (2005) (4)
- Arrow (TV 2012) (2)
- Supernatural (TV 2005) (2)
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Bucky is sinking slowly. He is overwhelmed by negative thoughts of the worst kind. Trouble is, he can’t climb back up on his own. Fortunately for him, he doesn’t have to.
ATTENTION TO THE FOLLOWING TRIGGER WARNINGS:
sleep deprivation, alcohol and drug abuse, thoughts of suicide and self-harm, mention of blood, depression, PTSD, mentions of nightmares and night terrors -
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You clicked off the TV blinking back tears, the words on screen still echoing in your mind. You weren’t sure if the moisture gathering behind your eyelids were from anger or if it was because of the vice grip around your heart, constricting inside your chest making you barely able to breathe.
Those people outside will never really know the real Bucky. They have never seen him like you have.
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In which I wrote a fic a day for a whole month. All feat. John Sheppard as a main character with or without the team, all hurt/comfort and/or angst fics.
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Five Things a Marine Needs to Know About John Sheppard by bemydoctor
Fandoms: Stargate Atlantis
27 Jan 2016
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He's not even sure how they got into this mess. One minute he was enjoying the sunrise during the most boring camp watch ever, and the next he was providing cover fire for one Lieutenant Colonel Sheppard.
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Some things never changed. Children, no matter the planet, would always be children.
Series
- Part 7 of Story Lottery Challenge
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 147
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Kudos:
- 4
- Hits:
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- Words:
- 8,178
- Works:
- 7
- Bookmarks:
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Feel The Current Within (I Can’t Help But Give In) by egg_thief
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe
01 Mar 2023
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“Winter Soldier. Attack.”
And his mind goes blank. He tucks aside the last bits of his consciousness, allows himself to slip away into the blissful nothingness once again. It’s been so long, and yet it still welcomes him with a warm embrace.
He greets the silence like an old friend. And his body gets to work.
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a one shot based during episode 3, following bucky as he’s forced to slip back into his role of winter soldier, and a bit of what happens after
Bookmarked by bemydoctor
19 Jul 2023
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Flawed Perfection by Squiggles13
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Captain America (Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
08 Feb 2026
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Bucky Barnes has a lot to contend with in the 21st century. One difficult task after another is laid out in front of him: managing his new found freedom, attending therapy and working through his trauma. It's a struggle, but recovery is not a straight line, as his therapist so often likes to remind him.
He has to navigate this friendship / relationship / whatever it is with Sam all the while managing his guilt and shame for his years as the Winter Soldier, and his grief over Steve's death. Then of course there’s these new super soldiers that have appeared out of nowhere that have to be dealt with, along with the frustrating inclusion of new faces, like Walker, and the familiar, like Zemo.
And then there is another task, one that sometimes seems to be the most difficult task of all: learning to be kind to his past self.
Rewrite / fix it of TFATWS – you do not need to read the other parts of this series, this works as a standalone. Pre TFATWS to about three months after the series ends. Not just a rehash of the TV series, I like to bounce off canon and do my own thing. I generally update fortnightly.
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- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 320,847
- Chapters:
- 62/75
- Comments:
- 1,045
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- 1,348
- Bookmarks:
- 261
- Hits:
- 63,234
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12 Jan 2023
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Bones of Some Contention by LivingProof
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe
10 Sep 2021
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For once, it’s not a dark specter from Bucky’s past that’s come back to haunt them. That, as far as he is concerned, is great. A nice change of pace. Something he can bring up next time Sam complains about all the skeletons that are hiding in Bucky’s mansion full of closets.
He’s the one with the gun to his head right now, though, so maybe Sam’s at least got a point with that whole “you can’t even get out of bed in the morning without running into something dangerous” bit that he does.
Or: Somehow, Bucky keeps ending up on the wrong side of the past. Even the pasts that don’t belong to him.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 14,171
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 214
- Kudos:
- 769
- Bookmarks:
- 185
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- 10,207
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03 Sep 2021
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There Are Super soldiers and Then There Are /SUPER/ Soldiers by Scoobert0
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
24 May 2021
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What happens when you give a super soldier more super soldier serum?
AU of 1x04 The Whole World Is Watching
Bookmarked by bemydoctor
01 Jun 2021
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A new killer makes himself known; taunting and teasing the major crimes department, as well as dropping bodies left and right. Multiple nights without sleep, trying to get the threat of their newest killer off the streets in a timely manner, leaves Dani, Gil and JT a bit more irritated than usual.
Malcolm seems to be the one taking the brunt of said irritation-- and if his childhood being a serial killer's son had taught him anything, it's how to second guess his relationships when people start getting annoyed with him.
It never really did take a lot to send Malcolm into a downward spiral. It's hard to miss though, as his father's voice fills his head with snide remarks, and a sinking feeling of anxiety settles in his chest. It's too bad someone else gets to Malcolm before Malcolm can get to someone for help.
Bookmarked by bemydoctor
15 Mar 2021