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    Neil swallows back blood. “Andrew.”

    “Abram,” Andrew returns.

    “I’m losing my mind. I think I’m losing my mind.”

    “You aren’t,” Andrew says, so easy, so certain. “You’re tired. You’re scared. That’s it.”

    Neil grits his teeth. “I’m,” he exhales shakily. “I’m – seeing things,” he admits.

    In which Andrew gets into a car accident one week into the off-season, and everything is fine right up until he starts dying every night in Neil’s dreams. Things get worse, and then they get better.

    Or, how trauma and triggers persist even after decades of safety, and how Andrew and Neil navigate them and take care of each other throughout it all.

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    25 Jan 2026

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    Shane can’t stand his college roommate and teammate, Ilya Rozanov. Can’t stand his arrogance and his messiness and his constant sleeping around.

    But then the entire team, Shane included, welcomes their families to campus for Parents Weekend.

    And Shane also can’t stand that Ilya is alone.

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    23 Jan 2026

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    "You are okay? I was not too hard in you?"

    "You mean too hard on me."

    "No. I do not." The corner of his mouth twitches, like a traitor.

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    Shane wears panties for Ilya.

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    14 Jan 2026

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    “Holy shit, dude,” Hayden whispers, too loudly, as he pulls Shane away. “No way you were just talking to Ilya Rozanov.”

    “Uh, yeah. We just met. Wait, did he lie to me?” Shane asks, looking back over his shoulder where Ilya is now standing next to a short but very muscular woman with long black hair. “What does he play?”

    Hayden stops, so Shane does too.

    “You don’t know who that was?” 

    Shane makes a face that says ‘no shit’, and waits for an answer. 

    “Dude. You are so innocent. Ilya Rozanov, ‘Russia’s Greatest Love Machine’?” Hayden says, like it’s obvious. 

    Shane looks at him blankly, and then Hayden laughs. Not like, a chuckle. He full on cackles, bending over like he can’t even contain it. “Man, he’s like prolific.”

    “At what?” Shane snaps, because he’s getting really sick of not being in on the joke. 

    “He’s a porn star, man.” 

    “A-” Shane says, swallowing thickly. “What?” 

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    Ilya is a porn star, Shane is a hockey player, and their paths cross.

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    16 Dec 2025

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    There's no way Kevin will be able to get any sleep while sharing a bed with Neil, right?

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    07 Oct 2025