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My name is Byun Euijoo, everyone usually calls me Juju, it’s a nickname Nicholas gave me—
He feels his chest tightening again and he pushes his chair back. When the space is enough for him to stand up, he stands, stretching his arms over his head and trying to understand why a nickname that Nicholas made for him should be included in a speech at his wedding.
Euijoo tears the page out, crumples it in his fist and throws it inside the bin. It joins the rest of its friends—mostly empty papers with good evening everyone in Mandarin written on it—inside the metal bin beside his desk, a growing graveyard of half-truths and incriminating sentences. Phrases that should never be spoken out loud.-
nicholas is getting married, he wants euijoo to give a speech.
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13 Jun 2026
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As he finishes speaking, Yūdai turns to Nicholas with an intense gaze. Nicholas almost imagines hearing him ask, Where are your roots, Nicholas?
I would like to put my roots down where Euijoo is also, Nicholas would probably reply, if he was being really honest with himself, if he dared to speak those words out loud and have them become true in that way. I bloom most splendidly whenever he is looking at me, after all.
or: You’d think that Nicholas would have this whole being in love with your best friend thing figured out after six years. Euijoo kissing him complicates matters.
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07 Jun 2026
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Before he could do it, Euijoo speaks up. “Have we met before?”
He retracts his hand that’s reaching to grab the white napkin by the plate to look at Euijoo. Nicholas is sure Euijoo has a face he won’t ever be able to forget if he’s seen it in passing or somewhere else. Beautiful smile, upturned lips, tanned skin that makes him look like he’ll probably make Nicholas sweat under the blanket if they’re pressed up against each other because he just seems to exude warmth.
“No.” Nicholas says, he’s never been more certain about anything in his life. “I don’t think so.”
“You look—” Euijoo trails off, “very familiar.”
“If this is a pickup line about how I’m the man of your dreams, I’m going to walk out of this restaurant right now, Euijoo.”
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in which euijoo and nicholas fall in love. for what feels like the thousandth time.
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06 Jun 2026
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Jo uses photography to capture the world, but nothing has ever caught his eye like Yuma, the enigmatic new student who keeps appearing across campus—and slowly, inside Jo’s life.
“Why?” Yuma asks, his tone quieter now, but no less intense. “Why are you taking pictures of me?”
Jo’s mind fractures into useless fragments. He thinks of light. Of the way Yuma’s presence seems to reorganize space. Of how his camera behaves like it recognizes him. None of this is explainable. None of it is admissible. He needs something small. Something survivable. What he produces instead is neither. “Because you’re… perfect.”
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31 May 2026
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It is a stupidly terrifying thought to picture Seoul without Nicholas in it. Nicholas has been less of a friend and more of a fact, something Euijoo never considered removable. And now—maybe he is. Maybe tomorrow or February or some terrible soon, Nicholas will shift categories from person I know like a second self to person I used to know.
And if this goes horribly—if Euijoo does what he’s planning and it detonates right in his face—he can always claim ignorance in the morning. He can blame the beer. He can say he doesn’t remember. Because what he’s about to do is stupid. Not just stupid—borderline catastrophic. But there’s another voice, quieter, stubborn: better to look stupid now than to spend the rest of your life wondering what if.
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31 May 2026