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Ryul’s eyes dip slightly, just for a second, or maybe Ohyul only imagines it. Maybe he’s just looking at their hands, at the way Ohyul’s wrists are still caught in his grip.
He only manages a frown in response. “What?”
“You’re so wound up you don’t even know what to do with it anymore.”
“I know exactly what I’m doing,” Ohyul snaps automatically, hoping to god Ryul is talking about the argument and not anything else.
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Jay wants to reach out and say stop pretending, but he knows he can’t. He’s the reason Jungwon’s pretending in the first place. He’s the reason Jungwon’s speaking like someone told him exactly what kind of person Jay would want — quiet, agreeable, easy to accommodate.
The words stick to his tongue like dried blood.
“Jungwon, I just— you can hate me,” he settles on finally, “I wouldn’t blame you.”
There’s a pause. Jungwon blinks, and then his expression softens just a little. He gives a small shrug, elegant and weightless.
“I don’t,” he says. “I don’t feel much of anything right now.”
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He’s not sure what’s different tonight, though arguably, a thousand things are: His hair, for one, is all buzzed down, rough and strange under his fingers. His bag is packed, his apartment is too clean. He won’t be back here for months, won’t be back to this version of his life for even longer.
Maybe it’s that, some last-minute flood of courage, some chemical response to the dread of the unknown.
Or maybe it’s the way Jungwoo hugged him backstage after his final show, the full weight of him, arms wound around Jaehyun’s shoulders, face buried in his neck like he didn’t want to let go.
Maybe it’s just the soju. Whatever the reason, right now, Jaehyun’s mind has settled on a single, impossible thought: What if.
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something in the way you've been running my mind by brixlight
Fandoms: Monsta X (Band), NCT (Band)
20 Aug 2025
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In this industry, you learn not to overread things. It’s muscle memory now, the way he talks himself down from every moment that might otherwise feel like something. He’s practiced, well-trained, too good at it by now.
Still. People don’t say come over that late on a Saturday unless it’s for sex. Right? The rules haven’t suddenly changed and no one told him?
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Doyoung doesn’t even look at the money. His gaze is sharp, but unreadable. He looks at Junghwan like he’s trying to figure out if he’s actually insane.
Junghwan shakes his head, fast, his throat closing. “I just— I don’t want to go without.. without ever— without knowing what it’s like. To be close to someone.” His voice drops, trembling. “Or… not just anyone. You.”
Doyoung’s jaw tightens. His eyes darken, his shoulders tightening like he’s bracing himself.
“You signed up for the surface program,” Doyoung says at last, voice low. Not a question.
Junghwan nods. “They start dosing us next week.”
Doyoung closes his eyes, just for a second. And when they open again, they look older. Sadder.
“You idiot,” he whispers.
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Suho and Sieun visit the hot springs.
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11 Apr 2026
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“But no one actually knows anything,” Eunseok stresses, raising an eyebrow. “Or are you just trying to make sure I know you’re going to be a big scary alpha, too?”
“There’s a reason why alphas have the reputation they do,” Wonbin says. “It’s a responsibility. You wouldn’t get it.”
“Whatever,” Eunseok sighs. “I don’t care about any of that, anyway.”
“Don’t be ridiculous,” Wonbin rolls his eyes. “Everybody does.”
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Or, SM has strict rules around secondary gender, which doesn't help the complicated feelings Wonbin already has about his. He has complicated feelings about Eunseok, too. When his suppressant fails, he's forced to deal with all of it.
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- Part 1 of so you can't forget me
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08 Apr 2026
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Seokjin’s career as a wedding MC is on the rise. He is known to be professional, charming and polite, and he most certainly does not get involved with the bride’s older brother on a sort of casual, low commitment basis, except that is exactly what he does.
aka a Namjin situationship fic.
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16 Jan 2026
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Out of anyone, Intak knows he’s the last person Jiung would want around for his heat.
While he’s drenched in sweat and vulnerable like this, biting on his lip so hard it’s starting to swell, body straining against the seatbelt.
Intak is guilty for how much he wants it anyway.
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18 Dec 2025
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When Chenle had said it, it had obviously been a joke. Nothing but a stupid joke.
“Great birthing hips, bro.”
It had been so dumb, Jisung couldn’t even laugh about it. Donghyuck had not even bothered with it, rolling his eyes before walking to plop himself face down on the couch. And Jisung had sat, watching Jeno annihilate Mark in Smash Bros and thought to himself, wide birthing hips, that’s stupid.
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21 Sep 2025