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    Shane leaves to give Ilya space after their worst fight. He never comes home.

    Now Ilya has to live with the last words he said to the man he loved: "Get the fuck out. I don't want to see your face."

    Some apologies come too late.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    The next day, Shane has to face his foolishness.

    Thirty-four messages sent to Ilya stare at him from his phone screen. All received and read, but none deserving of a reply.

    — Shane's accident on the ice isn't enough to stop Ilya from breaking up with him. Or rather, from completely disappearing from his life.

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    15 May 2026

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    “I asked you to do one thing. Talk to him. Make him stay. You couldn’t even do that! You claim you want to fix shit but you never fucking do it when it counts. You probably half assed the conversation with him so you can get home to your precious Tommy. God what did I even call you for?”

    The silence was deafening. They stared at each other. Eddie was trying to slow his breathing. He could feel a panic attack coming. This wasn’t how he spoke to Buck. This wasn’t how he spoke to anyone. This wasn’t him. Half of him was begging Buck to leave. The other half was begging him to please stay. You know this isn’t me. You know me better than anyone.

    Buck stood. He grabbed his jacket and keys and started walking to the door. Eddie's eyes went to the floor then. Buck stopped right next to him. He could see him in his peripheral vision.

    “I guess you won't make the mistake of calling me again will you?” Buck whispered. He stood a foot away from him and he could barely hear him.

    Eddie held his breath as Buck walked over to the door. He held it until he heard the door click shut.

    His knees gave out and he collapsed to the floor.

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    07 May 2026

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    30 Apr 2026

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    He’d shoved the envelope into his pocket, fingers tightening around it like holding it too carefully might make it more real. Around him, everyone else slipped out quietly, one by one, each of them clearly ready or at least willing to face whatever Bobby had left behind for them.

    But Eddie stayed seated, and he was the last to leave.

    Not because he needed more time, but because he already knew he didn’t want to read it.

    He couldn’t read it.

    Or; After Bobby’s death, everyone at the 118 receives a letter he wrote before he passed. Eddie gets his and overwhelmed by guilt and grief, he doesn’t open it right away. Instead, he spirals, goes out, drinks too much, hooks up with a guy, and loses the letter.

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    14 Apr 2026