1 - 20 of 321 Bookmarks by collfer

Navigation

List of Bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Words:
    14,521
    Works:
    3
    Bookmarks:
    515

    17 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

    ---------

    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    37,065
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1,402
    Kudos:
    29,915
    Bookmarks:
    10,010
    Hits:
    424,838

    17 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “They need to return to a conference based system,” Svetlana said, slamming her hand against the table. “It was fucking fine the way it was, why are we handing out participation trophies to shitty divisions?”

    Ilya raised his eyebrows from where he hovered in the kitchen, cracking open another Red Bull.

    “This is fun,” he said, deadpanned. “You guys should start a podcast or something. I would not listen, you are both terribly boring.”

    * * *

    Or, after an injury on the ice forces Shane into an early retirement, he and Svetlana start a podcast.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    12,683
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    645
    Kudos:
    11,194
    Bookmarks:
    2,511
    Hits:
    71,009

    16 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Cliff Marleau gets assigned to keep the new Russian rookie out of trouble. Fifteen years later, he gives a speech at Ilya's wedding.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    14,275
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1,675
    Kudos:
    18,021
    Bookmarks:
    4,187
    Hits:
    143,227

    14 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Hayden Pike loves his best friend, Shane Hollander so, yes, he’ll keep his big gay secret from his wife. He’s going to hate every moment of it, though.

    Or, Jacki Pike meets Lily, and it doesn’t really work out the way she thought it would.

    Can be read on its own, but it’ll make more sense if you read the series in order :)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,669
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    40
    Kudos:
    1,833
    Bookmarks:
    123
    Hits:
    10,585

    12 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “He’ll never forget anything about their first night. Or any night he shared with Ilya. Every detail has been etched into him. Without them, he wouldn’t recognize himself. Without them he was blank.

    Stop thinking about Rozanov. Fuck.

    He seeks new memories. New… etches.

    So when future archeologists dig up his bones they won’t read them like a love letter to Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane knows it’s risky.

    But he doesn’t know that tonight he won’t be etched, he’ll be broken.”

    When Shane hooks up with a stranger after a game, he thinks the worst that could happen is getting outed. He is wrong. What was meant to be a night to forget all about Ilya Rozanov, becomes a night when he needs him most.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    75,054
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    306
    Kudos:
    5,425
    Bookmarks:
    1,433
    Hits:
    88,621

    10 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    "Is this your first time with a man?"
    "Yeah. Yours?"
    "Oh—no."
    "Really?"
    "Really."
    "Who, another player?"
    He stopped. He hesitated.
    "no, my coach's son back in russia."

    Just as they begin to believe in something stable and lasting, a scandal erupts: a former Russian national team coach is exposed as a serial abuser, and images from Ilya’s past begin circulating in the media.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    107,765
    Chapters:
    32/32
    Comments:
    1,131
    Kudos:
    3,294
    Bookmarks:
    888
    Hits:
    108,155

    27 May 2026

  8. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    It starts, as many uncontrollable things do, on social media.

    @rozylover81- anyone else caught that awkward and awfully revealing moment between shane and ilya or
    @shaneandilya222 - rIGHT
    @rozylover81 - i mean?? did they just spill the tea about being together for far longer than i thought or are we all hallucinating this????
    @shaneandilya222 - GIRL THEY DID

    In which Shane and Ilya accidentally reveal their timeline to the world during an interview, and create an uncontrollable chain of events.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    11,780
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    88
    Kudos:
    6,302
    Bookmarks:
    957
    Hits:
    52,562

    24 May 2026

  9. Public Bookmark *

    Summary

    a collection of "fuck the montreal voyageurs" fics with a side of shane hollander being shane motherfucking hollander

    Words:
    17,593
    Works:
    2
    Bookmarks:
    725

    22 May 2026

  10. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Hayden hated the guy. Hated him.

    Hated his stupid, smug smirk and the myriad of insults he threw Hayden’s way and the way he made fun of Shane like it was a funny game then looked him up and down like a piece of meat and his reputation of sleeping with everything that fucking moved and the memories of being slammed into the boards by him and quite literally everything about this Russian dickhead.

    And he hated that he was now going to have to do everything in his power to learn how to tolerate Rozanov because Shane was inexplicably and hopelessly in love with him, and Shane was his brother in every fucking thing but blood, and Hayden was not going to keep being responsible for that sad puppy look on his face every time he realized how poorly they got along.

    So far, Hayden sucked at it. Big time.

    ---

    It bothers Shane that Hayden and Ilya don't get along, so Hayden is putting in the effort to try and see these redeeming qualities Shane claims the guy has. Over the years it becomes easier and easier, until one day, he realizes he doesn't have to actually try anymore.

    or, 5 times Hayden realized he was starting to tolerate Ilya + 1 time they acknowledged they were actually friends now

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    19,910
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    438
    Kudos:
    6,030
    Bookmarks:
    1,633
    Hits:
    54,734

    22 May 2026

  11. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Aka 5 times Ilya is the good guy and the 1 time Shane is the bad guy 😈

    OR

    Ilya Rozanov’s acts of kindness and Shane Hollanders act of VIOLENCE (deserved)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    5,800
    Chapters:
    6/6
    Comments:
    299
    Kudos:
    9,512
    Bookmarks:
    1,167
    Hits:
    63,677

    21 May 2026

  12. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    There’s a sudden cacophony of yells. As Shane turns to find the source of the noise, the only thing he can see is red splattered across the ice and a #81 jersey.

    For an absurd moment, all he can think is “my parents are at this game. Hayden and Jackie are in the stands. Thank god the kids aren’t here.”

    He doesn’t remember moving, but the next thing he knows, he’s kneeling in a pool of blood with his hands on Ilya’s neck, certain that he was about to die.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,310
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    136
    Kudos:
    6,182
    Bookmarks:
    1,171
    Hits:
    61,446

    21 May 2026

  13. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Based on a tumblr post from @notahungrywish, ending with:

    Just Shane casually assuming he'll always have to share and never be enough for Ilya and Ilya horrified to realize just how resigned Shane is to assuming Ilya will never be satisfied with him the way Shane is with Ilya.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    22,719
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    540
    Kudos:
    8,442
    Bookmarks:
    2,270
    Hits:
    107,331

    17 May 2026

  14. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane doesn't fall apart loudly. He spirals, shuts down, missteps. Ilya pays attention. He stays. He helps Shane learn what it feels like to be noticed without being corrected.

    or, 5 times Shane needs help regulating his autism, and Ilya is there for him + 1 time Shane is there for Ilya.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    6,155
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    234
    Kudos:
    11,230
    Bookmarks:
    2,219
    Hits:
    96,473

    17 May 2026

  15. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth.

    Shane wishes he had gotten one.

    After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,285
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    453
    Kudos:
    8,705
    Bookmarks:
    1,942
    Hits:
    96,940

    17 May 2026

  16. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane loves his husband. He really does! But sometimes, it can be hard to put that love into words.

    So maybe, when he tried to put it into words, he ended up writing a couple songs.

    And maybe he released them under a fake name.

    And maybe they got insanely popular somehow.

    -

    AKA the one where Shane and Ilya are married and in love and Shane is a little insecure about his ability to love his husband. So he becomes a faceless pop sensation. By accident. Mostly? It's complicated.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    13,678
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    787
    Kudos:
    7,533
    Bookmarks:
    1,733
    Hits:
    56,903

    13 May 2026

  17. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane and Ilya have a lot of sex. A lot of hot, intimate, dirty sex. But sometimes they don't. Sometimes, for one reason or another, they find more intimacy in the unexpected moments where their plans to fuck don't work out.

    Or:

    Shane and Ilya taking care of each other.

    • • •

    I: Shane Hollander has too much to drink.
    II: Ilya Rozanov gets the fucking flu.
    III: Shane Hollander suffers an Autistic shutdown.
    IV: Ilya Rozanov misses his mother.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    24,139
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    537
    Kudos:
    7,932
    Bookmarks:
    1,935
    Hits:
    94,173

    10 May 2026

  18. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.

    “There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”

    “I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.

    “No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”

    // shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    33,474
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    904
    Kudos:
    10,166
    Bookmarks:
    3,392
    Hits:
    149,520

    06 May 2026

  19. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it.

    He thinks, Ilya.

    He doesn’t remember much after that.

    -

    SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY
    The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to…

    Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    43,264
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    1,005
    Kudos:
    13,864
    Bookmarks:
    3,647
    Hits:
    194,797

    03 May 2026

  20. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.

    Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    9,094
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1,234
    Kudos:
    19,203
    Bookmarks:
    3,933
    Hits:
    104,240

    01 May 2026

Filters

Filter results:
Submit

Include

?
Include Ratings
Include Warnings
Include Categories
Include Fandoms
Include Characters
Include Relationships
Include Additional Tags
Include Bookmarker's Tags

Exclude

?
Exclude Ratings
Exclude Warnings
Exclude Categories
Exclude Fandoms
Exclude Characters
Exclude Relationships
Exclude Additional Tags
Exclude Bookmarker's Tags

More Options

Word count
Bookmark types
Submit

Clear Filters

Navigation