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    Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.

    Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”

    Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”

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    Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever

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    02 Jun 2026

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    LOVE

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

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    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    03 Apr 2026

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    Love ❤️

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    Pop star Shane Hollander is no stranger to crowds and success, but when an anonymous gunman at a press appearance threatens his life, the safety of his upcoming tour is called into question. Desperate to keep their cash cow not only safe, but happy, League Records hires former Spetsnaz operative Ilya Rozanov to provide 24/7 personal security for Shane. As the two spend time together, Shane Hollander realizes that the real threat to his life, to his career, is his own heart...and the way that he feels for the very man he is depending on to keep him safe.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    CUTE

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    LOVE ✨

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    It’s a Rogers family tradition, as his mother loves to remind him: Take your love to Ireland, propose to them in the motherland on the day of the Leap Year, and live happily ever after. His father had done it, his father before him, and his father before him. Steve had been hoping to be the end of the line, but if Tony’s going to string him and their four year relationship along, fine. He’ll take matters into his own hands.

    He’s getting engaged if it kills him, he's just got to survive a trip to Dublin in the company of James Barnes first.

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    15 Oct 2025

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    Fin