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    Ilya Rozanov was more than familiar with the rules the MLH had for unmated alphas - all in the name of some parity bullshit - but that didn't mean he enjoyed following them. On a whim, he decided to reach out to the matchmaking service Svetlana had mentioned.

    He doubted it was going to work, but maybe if he found a nice, quiet omega to help him relieve a bit of stress - and better yet, if they agreed to let him mate them - the league would ease up on their rules.

    Ilya was not at all prepared for Shane fucking Hollander to be the one who showed up at his hotel room. Fuck.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya find each other very attractive but what happens if Shane and Ilya never hooked up after the photoshoot? Instead, they both develop a deep friendship and become best friends. Both are equally scared to admit their true feelings and ruin the friendship. As time goes on, they realize the sexual desire and wanting to be together is greater than being platonic friends.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Shane takes consent as seriously as Ilya does. And he loves Shane consenting. It’s always “yes, please” because he is so fucking Canadian. And so enthusiastic, even without words. He never wants it, he always needs it. He doesn’t ride, he fucking bounces. And Ilya loves to let him take whatever he fucking wants because he is Shane fucking Hollander and he would never say no to him.

    Damn, his life was fucking awesome. So, if you want some life advice, Ilya got some tips.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    “I’m late,” Ilya finally says.
    “Oh! Yeah, of course, I’m sorry. It was good to see you, man.”
    Man. It’s patronizing.
    “You too.”
    Shane searches his face for a second, eyebrows creased slightly, face an open book just like before. Ilya tries to push past him, tries to see how fast he can forget that this encounter ever happened, but Shane stops him at the last second.
    “Can I give you my number?” he asks, already digging in his pocket for his phone. “We should catch up.”
    Ilya doesn’t want it. He really doesn’t want it. Shane is being polite. He’s being a good boy. He’s saying exactly the type of things you’re supposed to say when you run into someone you haven’t seen in years.

    Nine years after Ilya decided to end things with Shane, he runs back into him. Shane is working as a hockey commentator, while Ilya is married to Svetlana and living in the US as a retired hockey player. Although he knows he shouldn't, he allows himself to get to know Shane again.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Marlow finds out Ilya, his boy Ilya that he trusts more than life, is taking advantage of his boyfriend's insecurities to sleep around.

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    14 Jun 2026