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    For Shane Hollander, life has always been about playing a part. On the ice, he plays the best (or second best, depending on who you ask) hockey player in a generation. With his family, he plays the role of golden boy - kind and resilient and responsible. Even with Ilya, Shane has a part to play; reliable, happy, secure.

    But after the big move to Ottawa and a summer full of life changes, Shane can't catch his footing. This is supposed to be the start to the best chapter of his life – so why does he feel like he's drowning?

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    Shane Hollander-Rozanov navigates an Autism diagnosis during his first season as an Ottawa Centaur.

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    29 May 2026

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    The ash from the end of his cigarette missed the ashtray and landed on his arm. It stung, enough to drag his attention back to the present. He brushed the gray flecks from his arm, but paused, marvelling at the sting it left behind. It felt like control. He stared at the cigarette, slowly burning out in his hand.

    Taking a deep breath, steeling himself for the impending pain, he quickly jabbed the hot cherry into the meat of his arm.

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    Or, what if Ilya had another reason for loving cigarettes? It gets worse before it gets better (as with all mental health).

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    25 May 2026

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    Lily: Sorry, I didn’t get to say goodbye

    Shane had found the message sweet despite his disappointment. Now it just feels… ominous.

    That’s usually the point when Shane has to get out of bed and pace around his bedroom and remind himself that, if Ilya is ghosting him (he is not, he’s not, he’s not), then he is also ghosting the rest of the fucking world. Because that is the thing that truly, really, terrifies him.

    No one has heard of Ilya Rozanov in nearly three weeks.

    Shane hasn’t been getting much sleep lately.

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    After Tampa. Things between Shane and Ilya are finally starting to look stable… until Ilya drops off the face of the Earth with little warning. Shane spirals (a lot) and decides he’s going to find his man if it’s the last thing he does.

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    24 May 2026

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    Yuna
    5:26pm

    Ilya, are you not feeling well? The announcers just said you aren’t playing tonight. Do you want us to drop by with some dinner or need any medicine?

    Yuna
    6:01pm

    Ilya, could you just let us know you are okay?

    David
    6:35pm

    We are going to drop by your house, Ilya, we will be there in fifteen minutes

    Yuna
    6:57pm

    Shane, call us as soon as the game is over.

    Somewhere private.

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    23 May 2026

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    The All-Star Game is supposed to be harmless. Bright lights, broadcast smiles, forced camaraderie, famous rivals pretending none of it matters.

    Shane can handle all of that. What he cannot handle is Ilya two corridors away, wearing the wrong jersey, captaining the wrong team, and acting like they are not in love.

    Then a bomb threat empties the arena before puck drop. The players are told to stay in their dressing rooms. The delay becomes a lockdown. The lockdown becomes captivity.

    Below the ice, with the league’s most valuable players held as hostages, Shane and Ilya have to survive the night without reaching for each other, without giving themselves away, and without letting fear turn into something worse.

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    A hostage crisis, three targeted All-Stars, and Shane trying not to lose his mind every time Ilya opens his mouth.

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    20 May 2026