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    It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.

    But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.

    (how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “So we thought it’d be cute if we did your legal name.”

    The realization hits Shane only a split second before Harris lifts a Jersey. Same ugly Centaurs Pride Logo, Same 24, same A.

    HOLLANDER-ROZANOV is blazoned across the back, squeezed in to fit the 20 inches allotment.

    Shane and Ilya have their first Centaurs Pride Night as a married couple. They're definitely not weird about it. (Bood disagrees)

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “You can’t go two weeks without fucking me anyways,” Shane heard himself saying, and instantly felt like he’d chosen the wrong dialogue option. He should’ve said something like I’d like to see all the ways you can figure it out or maybe not sharing a room has never stopped us before.

    Ilya let out a laugh, “Please, you beg for me all the time.”

    “I’m not the one who can’t go more than a day without jerking off —” shut up Hollander, SHUT UP “I can totally go two weeks without fucking.”

    The Centaurs do a rotational room program for their first road trip of the season. Which would be fine if Ilya and Shane could be professionals.

    Shane starts a fight and gets a Dick Trick, Ilya is a mastermind, Bood becomes an Queer Icon, Troy has no idea what's going on, Hayes is having the time of his life, and no one wants to talk about the showers thing anymore.

    Now with Prequel, but stands alone.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are invited to a trivia night at All Stars.

    What could go wrong?

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    08 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 54

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    "I like your thighs," Shane sighs, turning his head to kiss the skin. "They're sexy."
    "You should fuck them," Ilya says, his voice thick with a smile that Shane doesn't have to look up to see.

    In which Ilya wants something, but it takes a little bit of work to convince Shane he wants it, too. A meditation on the way things are better when you want to be there.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya's peace is hard-won and devastatingly fragile. A phone call from Russia threatens to bring the whole house of cards down around them.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    "What are you talking about, Hollander?"

    Shane is pressed against Ilya's back, head propped on his hand. One careful finger strokes Ilya's left cheek, then taps twice.

    "I mean the beauty mark."

    Ilya shifts onto his back and looks up at Shane. "I thought you meant the fucking."

    "Don't be a dick." Shane chuckles and swats at his chest lightly. "I want to know the Russian word for beauty mark."

     

    A stolen hour of closeness, seen through the eyes of Ilya Rozanov.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Forty-eight people boarded the charter flight from Raleigh. Only one woke up in a Savannah hospital.

    Ilya Rozanov is the unbreakable Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. Now, he is also the sole survivor of a tragedy that the NHL would rather treat as a PR nightmare than a massacre. With a shattered body and a ghost team, Ilya finds himself at the center of a corporate conspiracy fueled by blood money.

    But he isn't alone. Shane Hollander has always been his greatest rival. Now, he’s his only anchor. Because sometimes, the only way out is through.

    Complete!

    More Details on the Main Character Death Tag

    Hey! The MCD tag is STRICTLY for the death of the Centaurs team, right from the beginning. Neither Ilya nor Shane die at any point in the fic.

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    05 Jun 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 69

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    Jane: We didn't even kiss

    IR: I think you have the wrong number

    Jane: Seriously???
    Jane: God, you're such an asshole

    or: 43 year old Ilya Rozanov receives a message that he should've gotten at a very different point in time, from a number that was deactivated 13 years ago.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Shane loses his game to a blizzard and his boyfriend to a bad hit, all in the same night.

    Snowed in with his parents in Montreal, he watches Ilya get stretchered off on live TV, and discovers that when your relationship is a secret, no one at the hospital thinks to call you.

    In Ottawa, Ilya wakes up with broken bones, a serious concussion, and a neatly edited brain. The months where he was lonely and depressed and fighting with Shane? Gone. He’s mentally living in the soft, hopeful beginning of things—and the more everyone tiptoes around him, the more wrong it feels.

    The Centaurs step up. The Hollanders dig in. Shane tries to convince himself that “temporary amnesia” is not the same thing as losing him.

    They’re still together. They’re technically fine.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    After they came out, Shane was ready for people to be weird.

    It was weird with other guys in the league, weird with reporters, weird with angry fans who thought his relationship had tanked their fantasy teams and their sports betting parlays, weird with sponsors and their very enthusiastic pride campaign pitches, weird on all the social media that he avoided like the plague.

    What he hadn't expected was for things to be so fucking weird with other gay people.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    Meringue is a sweet, hot, fluffy dessert. All the fics here will be purely self indulgent and without deeper meaning or conflict. For the foreseeable future, everything will be post-book 6 canon. Order is when I posted but not in internal chronological order.

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    02 Jun 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 20

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    This story takes place the morning after a particularly intense night of dom/sub activity between Ilya and Shane that involved too much alcohol and blurry consent. Before they have time to process the activities of the night before and reconnect, Yuna Hollander stops by. Unannounced.

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    01 Jun 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 20

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    “That’s enough.”

    Shane looks up at him with a smirk. “Is it?”

    Da. You are mischief.”

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    Between Heated Rivalry and The Long Game, Shane and Ilya learn to build something that lasts.

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    31 May 2026

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    Wyatt lightly punches him in the shoulder, and Ilya opens one eye to see Wyatt holding out his phone towards Ilya’s face.

    Ilya’s eyes grow wide, a sick feeling settling in his stomach.

    The match barely ended two hours ago, and already, there’s an article questioning if Shane had tripped on purpose. If Shane had tripped to let Ilya win.

    Ilya’s initial reaction is that of extreme insult. As if he needed Shane Hollander to let him win.

    But then…fuck. Shane.

    Ilya stands up suddenly and crawls over Wyatt (and steps on his feet none too gently in the process). He strides as fast as he can to the front of the bus towards Coach Wiebe.

    He leans down and murmurs to his coach, and gets a look of complete understanding.

    “As soon as we get to the airport, go,” Wiebe says. “We’ll see you in the morning.”

    --

    Or after Shane trips during that fateful game, Ilya refuses to let him face the aftermath alone.

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    29 May 2026

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    “Did you… Did you get a whole roll of wrapping paper for it?”

    “Yes. And ribbon.”

    “You’re cute.”

    “Shut up.”

    // shane’s birthday is next week. ilya has gifts for him.

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    29 May 2026

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    ✅ freak4freak hollanov
    ✅ heavy kink with tons of consent
    ✅ good bdsm practices
    ✅ extremely, embarrassingly in love
    ✅ autistic shane representation

    welcome to penalties, baby

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    29 May 2026

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    "He thinks about it later though, back in his hotel room alone. The thought of being tied up, being tied up by Rozanov, and fucked until he can’t take it anymore. Maybe even past what he can’t take anymore. That’s…

    Well. Shane isn’t the risk-taking type, but what has everything to do with Rozanov for the past five years been except a very bad idea?"

    ——

    shane: *asks to be tied up and fucked stupid*
    ilya: this is my fucking superbowl

    edit: now includes ilya's pov

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    29 May 2026

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    Ilya sits down carefully and takes Shane’s hand. “I am going to ask you something, and I want you to try not to freak out, okay? Take a breath, think about it.”
    That sounds… serious.
    “The Centaurs are having a barbeque,” Ilya says. “I would like to go, and I would like you to come with me.”

    Shane meets the Centaurs. As Ilya's close personal friend slash charity partner from Canada.

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    26 May 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 75

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    Ilya speaks three languages.

    English to survive, then to conquer.
    French because Shane exists in it differently.
    Russian because some things only have a name there.

    Shane learns Cyrillic in secret. One letter at a time. Like someone walking toward someone else in the dark.

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    25 May 2026

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