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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”

    Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.

    “Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.

    He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.

    Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.

    Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.

    All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.

     

    Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Shane slips through his front door and back into his quiet apartment. He leans back against the door and takes a steadying breath in his dark apartment. After a moment, the music next door turns off and Shane is left with only the pounding of his own heartbeat in his ears. 

    He closes his eyes and tries not to think about Rozanov or the way Shane’s entire body lit up like a live wire when he said in that low, accented voice, only if you ask nicely. He’s hard in his penguin print pajama pants and now he’s going to have to jerk off and shower before he can sleep. While trying not to think about his asshole neighbor.

    This is bad. This is very bad. 

    In which Shane Hollander's new next door neighbor is a menace who always seems to answer the door shirtless. 

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    29 Jun 2026

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    The All-Stars weekend in Tampa Bay ends in a tragedy for Shane when the plane taking his parents back to Canada from their trip to Mexico explodes.
    The relationship between Shane and Ilya takes an unexpected turn. Fear has been their biggest enemy for years. The tragedy in Shane’s life makes him realize that life is too short not to live proudly and be brave about his feelings for Ilya.
    As the secret slowly comes to light, there’s a thing no one can touch: their commitment to each other.

    Inspired by the t.a.t.u song with the same title.
    If they hurt you // They hurt me too // So we'll rise up // Won't stop // And it's all about us
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    I never wished that pain upon my worst enemy. It’s killing me that you will now know exactly how much it hurts. You loved both your parents. And they loved you. I’ve seen how close you were. I am so sorry. I wish things were different.
    All I can promise is that I will be always by your side. I will always protect you. I love you more than life, Shane.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Jackie and Hayden conspire to set Shane up with one of Jackie's friends by inviting him over for dinner without telling him that said friend will be present.

    Shane and Ilya decide it's time they come out to the Pikes as a couple, so Shane invites Ilya over to the Pikes' place for dinner without sending Hayden a forewarning.

    Cue: a jealous man, a confused house guest, and one very kid-friendly Russian.

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    29 Jun 2026