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    NOW COMPLETE :)
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    It’s 2023, and Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov (almost) have it all: they’re married, they’re playing for the Ottawa Centaurs, they’ve already won a Stanley Cup together.

    But there's one other thing they've always wanted.

    And no, it's not for Shane to get pregnant, okay? Ilya was only joking about that.

    They just want a baby using real-world, reproductive medicine. Yes, Shane and Ilya have learned what IVF is.

    And it goes like this.
     

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    Shane and Ilya’s three-year IVF journey to parenthood, feat. egg donor Svetlana, gestational carrier [name redacted but you can guess], Ilya's baby name list, Shane's first drag brunch, lovable dummy Hayden Pike, Anya's first ferry boat ride, a chapter of Yuna POV, pansexual Rose Landry, a 5+1 of pregnancy announcements (chapter 11, I die for you), and eventual #girldad life.
     

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    The "I want to have kids with you" fic I wanted to see in the world.

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    06 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 46

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    An untranslatable Russian word - Vladimir Nabokov describes it best: "No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pinning, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody or something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui boredom."

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    Irina Rozanova missed Russia. The cold bit her skin with an addicting kind of pain, one that was dulled by cigarettes and sharpened again with hunger pains as her father, Andrei Rozanov, again lost his money to coke. Canada was fine. She was shipped down to the continent by CPS after they found out about her homelife. She was to live with her closest kin. Her Uncles, Shane and Ilya, were always kind and made sure there was food on the table after her dreaded Hockey practice with that bitch Ruby Pike. Irina was grateful, it was more than she could as for at home in Russia from her own father, but she wished she was happier.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya always knew deep down they wanted kids of their own. But after a beach day with the Pike kids, they started thinking about turning their dream into a reality.

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    06 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 69

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    They've been together for years at this point, still nobody knows. Almost nobody.
    At the Pike residence they get to be Uncle Shane and Uncle Ilya. They get to love out in the open.
    And the mini Pikes love them.
    However, the kids don't fully understand that Uncle Ilya is a secret.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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