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    "I think we should start gaslighting everyone.” Shane looks at Ilya to see his reaction.

    “I don’t understand.”

    “No statements, no plans, of course we’re still doing the charity, but let’s just act like we already came out to everyone.”

    Ilya smirks. “Gaslight them?” Shane nods.

     

    or Shane comes up with the idea of gaslighting everyone into thinking they already came out. Ilya and Shane proceed to go out to lunch, and go on first dates slowly gaslighting their friends and the world.

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    31 May 2026

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander was the Next Big Thing in hockey. Then a baby he didn't know he had changed everything. Shane walked away from the MLH draft, choosing a life of diapers and midnight feedings over the Stanley Cup. Eighteen years later, his life is back on track, and his greatest achievement is about to make his MLH debut for the Ottawa Centaurs.

    Ilya Rozanov, captain of the Centaurs, has only one goal: secure his Canadian citizenship, come out, and finally live life on his own terms. He remembers Shane Hollander as a pretty boy from a World Juniors game in Saskatchewan. He doesn't expect to find that same boy back in his sightlines—not as a player, but as the father of his newest rookie.

    Or: The one where Shane is a world-class "dadager", Ilya is a pining captain, and Luca Hollander just wants to play his rookie season without his captain and his father making heart eyes at each other across the family lounge.

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    26 May 2026

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    Sixteen years ago at the height of Shane Hollander's career, he disappeared. Now years later invites to a wedding for a ‘Luca Hollander’ end up on the doorstep of many people of the past, many of which have their names etched in his father’s diary. Inviting them all with the intention of finally getting to know more about his father, and finally finding out who his fathers soulmate was.

    Will this be the wedding of the century without even knowing it or go down in a dumpster fire?

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    25 May 2026

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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    25 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    14 May 2026