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    The last thing Shane and Ilya expected when they died after living a long, happy life together was to wake up back in their 17 years old bodies the day they first met.

    They get to redo everything together and to fix what they got wrong the first time.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

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    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    24 Apr 2026

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  4. Public Bookmark 56

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    After a collision with an intoxicated driver, Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander must try to pick up the pieces of their lives without their daughter. Shane lives day by day, but Ilya falls hard off the edge, leaving Shane to escape into the arms of drug addiction.

    Three years later, a foundation is set up in their daughter's name to help those who have suffered like they have and Shane and Ilya are brought back together again to face their grief and each other. Can Shane get over his anger and find a way to lead Ilya back to a life he had worked so hard for?

    TW: OC death (child), complicated grief, suicidal ideations/attempt, discussions of mental health issues, drug use

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    01 May 2026

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    His eyes land on Ilya. 

    For one brief second, Ilya thinks Hollander is going to stop, step out of the walkway, say something. Do anything. 

    Ilya's hand twitches at his side, absurdly, like it's waiting for a handshake that has not happened yet. Like it's preparing for the contact. 

    Instead, Hollander gives him the smallest half-nod, barely there, and walks into the arena. 

     

    OR: One bad World Juniors drops Ilya Rozanov to sixth overall in the draft and Shane Hollander goes first. Rozanov decides he’s going to spend his career proving the league wrong. What he doesn’t plan on is becoming fixated on Hollander in the process — on the way he plays, and the way he watches Rozanov right back. Somewhere along the way, it stops being about the league’s attention and starts being about keeping Hollander’s.

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    25 May 2026

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