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    Atsushi tries to figure Dazai out, and fails at every stage.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Running from everyone and everything he's ever known with nothing but a duffel bag and the hat on his head, Chuuya hesitates when a stranger covered in bandages offers him a ride for free—all fake smiles, sharp edges, dark eyes. Maybe, he thinks, he isn't the only one trying to escape the ghosts of the past.

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    28 May 2026

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    Rumor has it that a figure in Yokohama’s underground scene is holding a contest. The top-voted street racer wins a free enrollment into the next Formula 3 season, all the way in California. They might as well be handing out a one-way ticket to the F1 roster, and all the fame, glory, and money that comes with it.

    The entire city’s confident that the best driver that the circuit’s known in decades, Dazai Osamu—street name: McQueen, will win the opportunity.

    That is, until a redheaded rookie known by the name of Prince shows up on his streets.

    Translations available here.

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    23 May 2026

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    i took way too long to read this but now thjat i started i wont stop

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    After the harrowing events of Round 7, a stray bullet from a careless guard causes another unexpected tragedy on stage: Mizi’s death.

    But just as the world dims around her, she makes one last wish to make things right— and wakes up several years in the past, well before her friends’ upcoming rounds.

    However, saving her friends won’t be easy; Sua’s already noticing her change in attitude, and Ivan’s being… well, Ivan. Despite that, she’s willing to go above and beyond for her friends.

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    14 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 22

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    Dazai thought about wings the way he thought about stairs. Just a way to go somewhere else. Birds had two, and that seemed important, like having two hands. He tried to imagine them on his own back—soft, grey, folded tight so nobody could see—and the picture felt almost right for one second.

    But then he pictured one wing missing. Or bleeding. Or torn. Gone, like it had been taken away from him when he wasn’t looking.

    Two was for flying. One was for falling. Dazai didn’t know why he felt like a one-wing thing, but he did. He looked at the roof edge and thought, very quietly, Maybe I’m supposed to fall. Maybe falling will fix it.

    or: Dazai has been reaching for the exit since he was five. Ten attempts, years apart—a life lived with one wing in the grave—stitched together by the same quiet grief.

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    06 May 2026

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    By the time his miraculous fourth year at Hogwarts began, Dazai Osamu was legally Snape’s son.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    College AU where Chuuya finds out that the boy he drunkenly made out with the night of orientation is his new roommate.

    His arrogant, smug, very straight roommate.

    And the boys are each convinced the other is trying to ruin their life by making them go absolutely insane.

    Turkish Translation Here

    Vietnamese Translation Here

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    27 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    wait what the peak wtf

  8. Public Bookmark 32

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    Dazai looked again at the reflection: hollow cheeks, bruised-looking eyes, collarbones too sharp, limbs too narrow to pass for anything healthy. Not beautiful. Not masculine. Not feminine. Just wrong. A body that refused to disappear but refused to feel alive. A body he maintained like a crime scene, because that’s what it was— taped off, segmented, handled indirectly.

    or: Dazai’s body has never felt like his own—too sharp, too empty, too present. He starves it, ignores it, punishes it; it betrays him anyway. Chuuya tries to touch him, Odasaku tries to feed him, Mori tries to control him. None of it helps.

    ⟢ A mosaic of vignettes about hunger, shame, and the quiet violence of living in a body you don’t want.

    BSD Dead Dove Week 2026 - Day 2 - Eating Disorders, “It doesn’t hurt. That’s the strange part.”, Sadism/Masochism, Vomiting (Alt)

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    15 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    im gonna kill myself

  9. Public Bookmark 40

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    Nothing too dramatic yet, but these two idiots are about to start hurting each other. So
    enjoy the calm before the storm.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    ch 16

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    "My partner..." Chuuya rasps out again, his uncoordinated hand raising heavily to gesture at his eye, "pretty bandaged boy, kinda skinny. Where...?" 

    Only when the nurse blinks at what he said does he realize what he actually said.

    He must be out of his fucking mind right now, calling that bastard pretty. 

    Well, he does feel damn heavy and foggy-minded. The drugs have to be strong as shit.

    ____

    Chuuya wakes up in the hospital after a mission gone wrong, in which Dazai was tortured and Chuuya had to use Corruption to save him.

    The first thing he asks the nurse for is his shitty partner.

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    01 Mar 2026

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    “Tsushima Shuuji,” Chuuya reads out loud. “A bright, optimistic young man with a pep in his step and a zest for life. Hang on–is this referring to you?”

    “Unfortunately,” Dazai laments, sighing dramatically. “You just got away with ‘science nerd’ and ‘soccer player,’ but I’m supposed to be an artist! I hate art! It’s useless!”

    “Shut the fuck up. That’s not the problem here. You? A ‘zest for life?’ Looking forward to each new morning? Hah! Rimbaud would sooner come back to life.”

    Dazai turns to Chuuya with the barest facsimile of a smile painted over his lips.

    “I,” he says sweetly, “am going to gut you open like a fish.”

    Dazai and Chuuya are seasoned mafiosos at the ripe old age of almost-seventeen. They’ve fought gang wars, interrogated prisoners, and done all manner of unspeakable things. Now, they face their greatest challenge yet: going (undercover) to a real high school. With regular teens (who may or may not be desperately trying to get them to kiss).
    One thing’s for sure: this school is unprepared for the absolute calamity that is Double Black.

    Written for the SKK Big Bang 2022 feat. art by videogamelover99 & beta'ed by Airini.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    In another universe where soulmates exist and are identified by marks in the form of whatever injury your partner has- Chuuya Nakahara is about to turn 16, and his best friend Dazai has been endlessly teasing him over the prospect of a mark. However, when he wakes up on his birthday covered in light blue lines he is unsure what to do, or how to approach identifying his soulmate, and his best friend has been acting in increasingly concerning ways since being told about the marks.

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    What do you do when your covered in the evidence of your soulmates self harm, and your bandaged best friend (who you are definitely NOT in love with) seems to be breaking at the seams?

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    24 Feb 2026

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    “Jesus Christ, Chuuya is going to kill this idiot for worrying him like this, for being a suicidal maniac who decided to put himself in the damn trajectory of a machine that they don't even know all the effects of yet.”

     

    When a stranger starts stealing people's abilities, the ADA and the Port Mafia team up to figure it out. However, something goes wrong and Dazai loses his ability in the process.

    The big problem? His ability not only nullified the abilities of others, but also his own emotions. And now, for the first time in his life, Dazai has emotions, chaotic and in turmoil. In the midst of this identity crisis, Dazai sets out to explore the world with Chuuya as his grumpy bodyguard, only to discover that he has never felt so...alive. And then they find out that if they don't find a way to give him back his ability, Dazai will die within two weeks.

    In a race against time, chaos ensues.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    platonic odazai whump fics where dazai shows up half-gone, bloody, or worse, and odasaku keeps tending to what’s left anyway.

    dissociation, aftermaths, suicide stuff. touch, eventually. dazai doesn’t ask. odasaku gives it anyway.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    WAHHH I LOVE THIS AUTHOR SO MUCH

  15. Public Bookmark 65

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    “What’s your problem?” Chuuya pressed. “You drink. You swallow whatever pills the Boss throws at you like candy. But one little joint and you’re acting like a grandma.”

    Dazai’s smile froze.

    “Chuuya,” Albatross said lightly, pushing himself up onto his elbows. “Maybe chill.”

    “What? I’m just saying,” Chuuya said. He turned back to Dazai, annoyance lighting his cheeks. “You’re the one acting like I’m about to shoot up heroin in front of a kindergarten. It’s weed. You already do every other drug under the sun.”

    The words hit harder than they should have. Maybe because they were true. Maybe because they weren’t, not in the way Chuuya thought. For a heartbeat, Dazai couldn’t hear the wind or the waves. Just the pounding in his own ears.

    Every other drug. Like it was a hobby. Like it was something he did for fun.

    “Chuuya doesn’t know what he’s talking about,” Dazai said, voice flat.

    or: Chuuya smokes for fun. Dazai takes drugs to die or because Mori tells him to. When a stupid joint on a hill turns into Dazai admitting the difference, Chuuya makes a new rule: if the Boss drugs you, you don’t go curl up alone. You come find me when it’s over.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Mori Ougai had worked hard to earn his position as head of the Port Mafia, and he ruled with absolute authority. And, like any other who wielded absolute power, he was not someone to take an affront lightly. He was even less inclined to forgive and forget when the affront was committed by a spandex-clad man who claimed to fight for peace above all else. So, when he found himself dangling by the collar at the hands of Japan’s Number One Idiot during what should have been a routine meeting, he couldn’t help but laugh.

    Finally. Something he could work with.

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    Chuuya had done a lot of batshit crazy things in his life–he’d taken out entire rival gangs with just Dazai at his side, he’d been betrayed by the people closest to him, and he’d even risen to be one of the most influential members of the Port Mafia before he even turned 16. But nothing could have prepared him for his next mission. A pro-hero? UA student? Him? And that bandaged freak was going to? What has the world come to?

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    Or Mori is attacked, so Soukoku is forced to go to UA, and Dazai wields emoticons like verbal nukes

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    Updated irregularly
    (12/12/2025) Updating chapters 3/14 finished

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    29 Jan 2026

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    ch 17

  17. Public Bookmark 31

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    During a forced social gathering at the Agency, Dazai manages to slip away after distracting his younger mentee with some elaborate excuse, seeking solace in the bathroom amidst a morbid encounter with the piece of deadly metal in his hands, contemplating.
    Chuuya watched him slip away. And he won't let it happen again.

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    14 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    why is this author so peak sos

  18. Public Bookmark 60

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    5 Times Dazai's bandages were torn away against his will

    and 1 time it was his choice.

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    13 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    i think im addicted to dazai angst

  19. Public Bookmark 40

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    He could’ve gone to Odasaku.
    He could’ve gone to Doc.

    He could’ve gone back to the container, thrown up until he passed out, and called it a night. He could’ve gone under the water and just waited. But his legs were already walking again. And they weren’t going toward any of those places.

    Dazai knew this part of the city too well. Knew the slant of the road, the neon buzz of the bar sign three blocks up, the iron stairs past the alley where the dogs always barked. He didn’t need to look up to know where he was going.

    He knew this part of the city because—

    Because it was where he lived.

    delirium drags dazai somewhere he didn’t mean to go. his body chooses chuuya for him.

    (or: he should’ve died on the way to the door. survival isn’t the mercy people think it is.)

    Hurtcember 2025 - Day twenty-four - Delirium, “Why me?”

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    12 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    my 14th reason

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    from S2E9:

    “Do you still wear the coat that I gave you?”
    “I burned it.”

    They’re the wrong words to say.

     

    Mori’s abuse runs deep—deeper than anyone, including Dazai, had realized. And he’s doing it all over again.
    [WARNING. *PLEASE* MIND THE TAGS.]

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    09 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    my 13th reason

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