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“We love you, Carol.”
She is sixteen and can’t meet her parents’ eyes as they try to say goodbye, her duffle bag at her feet and Camp Freedom Falls in front of her. She doesn’t want to be here. She doesn’t need to be here.
Fuck this, and fuck them.
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or: Carol Sturka and her complicated relationship with loving and being loved
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26 May 2026
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There is an old, strange house by the sea which is hauntingly accommodating to Carol's every need. She carries her grief and two phones, calling one with the other just to hear a voice that can't answer back.
She spends her days chasing what is left of herself, trying and failing to write, and waiting for whatever is in the house with her to show itself.
Then her phone rings. A new voice on the line.
Her name is Zosia. She says she's here to help.Bookmarked by itsonmate
30 Apr 2026
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Carol misses those nights when she took silence and sleep for granted. It’s been two weeks since they have stopped, and the repercussions are starting to show in the sluggish way she moves about in the morning. In the headaches that remind her of the worst kind of hangover. And in the irritation she feels at the slightest inconvenience, or even at her lack of inspiration when she sits in front of a blank document on her computer.
Well, maybe that last part isn’t entirely someone else’s fault. But still, she should do something about the fucking noise.
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“Well, then? Do you need something?”
Carol takes a deep breath. For the first time since moving in this awfully sleazy apartment complex, she’s about to be the wet blanket everybody hates – or maybe appreciates for the intervention, she hopes.
“Yeah,” she mutters and points to the door. “Could you turn it down? I – I’m trying to get some sleep.”
The other seems to ponder her request for a second before shrugging. “It’s not that loud.”or
a new tenant moves in the upstairs apartment. She's loud, careless, annoying. And hot. And Carol has a hard time dealing with that.
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28 Apr 2026