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    you know this moment, don’t you? (time is strangely calm now) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    25 Dec 2025

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    It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is.

    His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped.

    Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken.

    Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too.

     

    or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place.

    "I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.

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    25 May 2026

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    of all the cigar joints in the world by for butterflylungs

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    11 Mar 2026

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    Ilya, possessive as always, wants an opportunity to take Shane out on his arm on something that barely resembles a date, but it's the closest these two closeted freaks can get to expressing their romantic feelings.

    Shenanigans ensue.

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    13 May 2026

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    you could never lose me by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    03 Jan 2026

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    Shane is aware that he is an absolute mess, with hands trembling and shoulders shaking. His breaths are coming in short bursts, quicker than he is able to control them.

    The confession sits like an elephant between them, and yet, Ilya hasn’t moved, tracing soothing circles between Shane’s shoulder blades.

    “Sweetheart.” His husband’s voice is steady, soothing. “You need to breathe for me, okay? This isn’t good for you.”

    OR, after a night out with J.J. and Hayden, Shane wakes up, certain that he has cheated on Ilya. (Spoiler alert: he hasn’t)

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    09 May 2026

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    i'm afraid and relentless in my craving by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    28 Mar 2026

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    Ilya looked at the mannequin and told himself he was thinking about it for Shane. Shane would look pretty in this. That was why Ilya wanted it, because he was picturing Shane’s waist nipped in like that, Shane’s long legs covered in silk. The color would look good on him.

    It would look better on Ilya.

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    09 May 2026

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    side effects may vary by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    01 Apr 2026

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    Yuna’s entire body aches, and it would appear that her instincts were right— Rozanov is small, and he’s vulnerable, and he’s tired, and he needed somewhere safe to rest.

    And Yuna can’t help the weird sense that she’s honoured— her home was somewhere for Rozanov to go, even if she and David knew nothing about any of it, even if they still don’t, Shane knew it would be safe for Rozanov here. Shane told him to come home.

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    30 Apr 2026