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Amargosa: from the Spanish amargo, meaning 'bitter,' likely shortened from agua amargosa, 'bitter water.' The name is used for locations in the Mojave Desert.
or: Shane hates how he sounds, how his voice goes a little high and comes out too flustered - Ilya must know that what he means is ‘I want something. I always want something from you.’ That he can’t ever help himself.
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he will try to remember which apologies come faster the second time. He can never quite recall whether 'I swear to God' shifts before or after the rhythm does. He only knows there's a moment where the sound turns obedient, where Shane's voice changes shape, and Ilya can still feel it in his hands even when he isn't touching him.
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ilya rozanov did not plan to spend the majority of his rookie season in a hospital. then again, he didn't plan on shane hollander either.
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or, the whump fic. based on my own tweet: a fic where 17 yr old shane is a [redacted] ill patient and ilya is the rookie his team drags to the children’s hospital. he falls in love w freckles and can’t stop visiting shane every chance he gets.
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Shappicly-Shappo OP
Fair question! I didn’t go looking for them or anything. Doing some side work for a local moving company (just boring documentation thank god. I’m much too frail for manual labor!!!) and according to my boss it was left behind by a client ‘‘forever ago” and was never claimed. Knowing him that probably means they didn’t deliver it a decade ago and the client never called looking for it. They were doing a big storeroom clean out and were just going to toss it, so I thought I’d snag it!imhavingabadtime_0158
So, you just picked up a bunch of old journals you couldn’t read? Didn’t you say you just started grad school? Girl, are you not busy enough????Or Ilya loses his old journals in the move to Ottawa.
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05 Jun 2026
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Controlled Contact Is Still Contact by Fangirl_Shrieks
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Jun 2026
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Rozanov pins Shane down, fucks into him like he almost hates him, gets a hand around his cock, rough and deliberate, and says it low against his ear—go ahead, try it. Say her name one more time, I fucking dare you—and Shane opens his mouth and sobs into the pillow and nothing else comes out. Just tears and the blood under his nails from Rozanov's back. Then he finds the angle he's been finding since Nashville, and the name is gone entirely.
That's also, more or less, the point.
Shane hates him for that. He hates him the way you hate something that keeps being right about you.
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Or: Shane spends nine years building a structure so airtight it functions as a personality, and Ilya Rozanov spends nine years being the single thing that doesn't fit inside it.
Featuring crazy situationship sex, the complications of sometimes being a terrible person, and one unhinged fixation on Svetlana Vetrova, 31 photos deep, that was never about Svetlana Vetrova.
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- Part 2 of Boys Will Be Boys
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05 Jun 2026
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It turns out ‘slut’ isn’t an offensive term – not if you’re Shane Hollander.
5+1 of Shane discovering his new favourite term of endearment. -
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Shane makes some changes to protect his privacy. People notice.
*5+1 of Shane establishing his boundaries. AU where Shane and Ilya were never caught at the cottage.