10 Bookmarks by lightningclouds

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    21 Apr 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 33

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    Shane turns to Reddit for help on purchasing his first dildo. Little does he know that Ilya is secretly helping him the entire time.

    or Ilya pretends to be a random stranger on the internet and helps Shane buy his first dildo.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is sick and tired of getting set up on terrible dates by his ex-girlfriend. He's going to ruin the next one so spectacularly that Rose never tries it again.

    He doesn't expect the plan to work perfectly, but meeting Ilya turns out to be its own plot twist, a delicious bite of irony.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane’s boyfriend just couldn’t fuck him right, fortunately his ex could.

    So Shane invites his ex over to fuck him while his boyfriend watches and learns. It’s purely educational. Totally not about the unresolved feelings that they both don’t have

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    2/2
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    14 Apr 2026

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    “Oh, fuck off, Rozanov,” Shane seethed. “What do you want?”

    Retracting his arms to his sides, Rozanov sniffed once and peered around the bathroom. “Just came to say hi.”

    “Well, you didn’t,” Shane pointed out.

    With a jerk of the head, Rozanov once again trapped Shane in his heavy gaze. There was an inexplicable fire in those ice blue eyes; a heat that shouldn’t have been possible given the frost of Rozanov’s overall expression. His features—pinched and still—were the perfect facade of calm… unless you knew where to look.

    The eyes. Shane always saw the blaze behind those glacial pools.

    Nyet,” Rozanov agreed, lips barely parting around the nod to his mother tongue. “I didn’t.”

    He took one large step towards Shane, and Shane reflexively retreated, staggering backwards until he made contact with the wall. Cold tiles stuck to his T-shirt at the shoulder blades, and he gasped as he arched his back.

    “Then wha—?” he began.

    When Shane Hollander excuses himself to the men’s room at Ciel nightclub in Montreal, Ilya Rozanov follows him. And, this time, the Russian is determined not to go home alone…

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    12 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    Chapters:
    18/?
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    17,298
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    07 Apr 2026

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    Lily: You suck at sexting.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    09 Mar 2026

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    Ilya starts calling Shane boring regularly after that, not cruelly but persistently, the way you press a bruise you know is there just to confirm it still hurts. Shane's cereal is boring, Shane's training schedule is boring, Shane's shoes lined up by the door are boring, and Shane responds with variations of "fuck off" and "you're an asshole" that become increasingly creative and occasionally surprising. They do not talk about anything that matters. They talk about groceries and whose turn it is to take out the trash and whether Ilya's music is too loud at midnight, which it is.

    On the ice, Shane is someone else entirely. Ilya watches him from the upper stands every morning with vending machine coffee going cold in his hand and doesn't tell anyone.

    Or: Shane asked Ilya once how you know when it's the right person. Ilya described Shane to him, and Shane didn't recognise himself.

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    Chapters:
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    09 Mar 2026

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    “So we thought it’d be cute if we did your legal name.”

    The realization hits Shane only a split second before Harris lifts a Jersey. Same ugly Centaurs Pride Logo, Same 24, same A.

    HOLLANDER-ROZANOV is blazoned across the back, squeezed in to fit the 20 inches allotment.

    Shane and Ilya have their first Centaurs Pride Night as a married couple. They're definitely not weird about it. (Bood disagrees)

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    180
    Kudos:
    3,364
    Bookmarks:
    498
    Hits:
    29,296

    06 Mar 2026

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