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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Ilya knows what he is. He has always known what he is. The word for it in Russian tastes like something you'd scrape off a boot.

    The word in English is bisexual, which is a nicer word, which he has heard, which he does not use. He uses other words. He uses the word his brother taught him. He uses it on himself before anyone else can.

    He grows up. He gets good at hockey. He moves to America. He... falls in love.

    (Or, five times people fail to notice Ilya being queer, and one time they have no choice.)

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    03 Jun 2026

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    Marlow knows better than to push. Everyone’s got their own shit, especially on the road. But there’s only so many nights you can wake up to someone falling apart before it stops being something you can ignore.

    // Ilya hasn’t seen his mother in over ten years. Lately, he sees her every night.

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    25 May 2026

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    A video leaks on the internet: Ilya Rozanov, staggering drunk in an alley outside a club in Montreal. He's angry, then crying. What he's saying is pretty incoherent, but it seems like he and Rose Landry had a secret relationship in the past, and now he's jealous seeing her and Shane Hollander dancing together!

    Well. That's what the internet concludes, anyway.

    The denizens of r/mlhockey and r/mlhmess are delighted to follow this drama as it unfolds. Meanwhile, Shane and Ilya have to deal with being seen as love rivals as well as rivals on the ice.

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    12 Mar 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

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    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    03 Mar 2026