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Rite Beneath the Radiance by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Ember & Ice (Audio Drama)
27 May 2026
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Shane is well aware of his position. His life revolves around discipline, study, and training. He can’t risk indulgences. His mother is the crown ruler of the Lunare kingdom. A kingdom he will one day rule.
Prince Ilya Rozanov on the other hand has an older brother, and is not next in line for the throne. He can drink and fuck and dance like he has not a care in the world.
Like he has freedom.
Shane would love just a taste.
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The Stars Incline Us, They Do Not Bind Us by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: 富豪刑事 Balance:UNLIMITED | Fugou Keiji: Balance:Unlimited (Anime)
25 May 2026
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Haru should never underestimate his father’s capability for cruelty. “I can inform the MCPTF that Haru Kato is an omega and by legal statute cannot work there anymore. I can also inform them that Haru Kato is not actually Haru Kato.” Haru paled as his father continued. “I can ruin your precious fake little life.”
And, the panic began to set in. The panic that had been bubbling in his chest for hours, for months, for years.
He’s been caught. All Haru wanted was to live a simple life, it was an incredibly naive thing to think he could have that.
After striking a deal with his father to keep his life as Haru Kato, Haru struggles to keep both of his identities separate from one another. It isn’t until they both begin to collide due to none other than Kambe Daisuke, that everything starts to go to shit.
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Until It Wasn’t by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
20 Apr 2018
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“We’re going to be okay, Michael.” He whispers to his son. His son who is terrified and shaking, trying so hard to stifle the sobs that threatened to spill from his lips.
He hears Michael sniffle, “H-how do you know?”
Hurry, Len.
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- Part 2 of ColdFlash Week 2018
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Water Is For Washing. Vino Tinto Is For Drinking. by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
18 Apr 2018
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“I was a good kid, then I spent two years in Iron Heights,” Barry paused shaking his head and sneered, “I wasn’t a good kid after that.”
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- Part 1 of ColdFlash Week 2018
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Ever since he was a kid, the only way he ever felt better was when there was a blade pressed against his wrist and blood dripping on the floor.
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ColdFlash Week 2018 by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandom The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
20 Apr 2018
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Shane and Ilya are different behind closed doors.
A multi POV fic that allows other characters to get a glimpse behind the wall.- Language:
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Bookmarked by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
04 Jun 2026
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is just ten year plan to fuck by akatomlinson
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 May 2026
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Shane fucking Hollander. Hockey’s Golden Boy. Long-time crush of Ilya Rozanov. Long, looooong time. A decade of being a fucking simp for this man. God, he was in trouble.
It should be pretty much illegal to go from their only contact being at face-off across the ice, to suddenly hosting Shane in his exclusive club—during a fucking event, no less. Ilya’s event.
He would never admit it, but he’s been stealthily trying to get Hollander to show up at his club for years now. Hell, Shane was the whole reason he invested in the club in the first place. Bought a fucking house here. Maybe that was an insane thing to do, but he didn’t care. Ilya was insane. Insane for Shane.
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- Part 1 of kitten shane series
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Give You Up by Eigengrau (aussiebee)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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Shane watches Ilya shove a hand through his hair, waits for him to meet his eyes. “You pretend to want things, pretend I can have things that we both know you won’t let me have,” he says, his newfound self-esteem carrying him past the point of no return. He wishes he’d never discovered it, because it’s making Ilya’s face do something awful.
“Oh, you mean I hurt your feelings?”
Close enough, Shane supposes, his chest aching again. He goes to lift his hand again, sees Ilya zero in on the movement, doesn’t. “I guess so.”
Ilya scoffs, mean and sharp. “So sorry, Hollander, I didn’t mean to make you get so emotional about a casual fuck.”
Asshole. So many times he has lobbed the word at Ilya in exasperation, reluctant affection and disbelief, but now he thinks it with vitriolic anger. “I think you should go.”Shane finally decides that Ilya's ability to weaponise sex isn't enough for him anymore. Ilya doesn't take it well, but Shane holds firm. Then they start to text about it. Sort of.
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02 Jun 2026
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Because nobody knows you by Verity (ivyandcarnation)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 May 2026
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It's 2016.
Shane Hollander. 25. Fresh off his second, consecutive Stanley Cup win. Captain of the Montreal Voyageurs.
An omega, too, though Hollander would never verbally express how much the media ticked him off whenever reporters bring up that fact despite the hard look in his eyes. The first known omega in the NHL. He was a trailblazer, but not by choice. 6 months prior to the second Stanley Cup win, his team rallied around him when some nosy nurse leaked his medical records to the internet.
Ilya Rozanov, 19, a rookie with the Boston Bears, and an alpha, can't wait to play against his hero. They say never meet your heroes, but Shane Hollander has always been an exception.
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A political agreement by thickshamu144
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
04 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander agrees to an arranged marriage because refusing could start a war. He expected a transactional relationship, minimal emotional involvement, and maybe some occasional awkward small talk.
Instead he gets a six-foot-three stupidly attractive Russian alpha who is apparently determined to follow Shane around campus like an overprotective guard dog.
meanwhile Ilya Rozanov was fully prepared for a spoiled, haughty omega.
But Shane was earnest, stole his cloths, cried over his gunshot wound, and called him mine in front of his father.
Now Ilya’s a little obsessed.