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   I Want Something Good To Die For (To Make It Beautiful To Live) by lulu0zyx

   Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga)  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   05 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Matt | Mail Jeevas/Mello | Mihael Keehl
   • Mello | Mihael Keehl
   • Matt | Mail Jeevas
   • Self-Harm
   • Self-Hatred
   • Heavy Angst
   • Mello | Mihael Keehl Loves Matt | Mail Jeevas
   • Matt | Mail Jeevas Loves Mello | Mihael Keehl
   • Eating Disorders
   • Riding
   • Mild Smut
   • Angst and Fluff and Smut
   • Comfort Sex
   • Cutting
   • Minor Violence
   • Blood and Injury
   • Matt | Mail Jeevas-centric
   • Addiction
   • Wound Care
   • Body worship (a little)

   Summary

   Matt’s fucked up.

   He’ll stare at a blank wall for hours, thinking about nothing and everything at once.

   Mellos cruel. Mello’s cold, and fierce; Mello’s everything Matt’s not.

   Matt loves him. Mello doesn’t do ‘love’.

   They’ll fuck. And maybe, if Matt’s lucky, Mello will stay the night, keeping a safe distance between them; the space a canyon Matt dared to cross.

   They were basically dating.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   4,094

   Chapters:

   1/1

   Comments:

   19

   Kudos:

   68

   Bookmarks:

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   29 Apr 2026