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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    31 May 2026

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    Tampa, Florida. Room 1217.

    In between fade out and fade in, Ilya Rozanov lets the fire burn and Shane Hollander lets the storm surge.

    A few hours in a hotel room can change you.

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    22 May 2026

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    “Eddie,” Gareth says, solemnly.
    Eddie nods.
    “I’m telling you now, even though I know it’s pointless, because you never listen to anything I say. Ever.”
    Eddie nods again.
    “Please. I am begging you. Do not fuck our new roommate.”
    “Why the fuck would you say that?” Eddie hisses, cheeks aflame again. “What is wrong with your-”
    “That’s all I’m saying,” Gareth interrupts airily, hands up in mock surrender. “No further objections. You’re just a natural disaster, and I’d rather keep the apartment a conflict free zone, so.”

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    Eddie and Gareth require two new roommates (must be okay with illegally housed cats, must be chill with late night band practices). Robin and Steve require a place to live, and have little to no other options.
    Months down the line, Eddie still finds himself tongue tied and avoidant around his very hot-probably-straight-weirdly-intense new cohabitation buddy, which is all very well and good- until they end up snowed in together during a powercut, and are forced to get a little cozy together <3

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    15 May 2026

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    “I could, though,” Shane said, not willing to give up just yet. “Seduce you. If we were meeting for the first time right now. As adults, I mean.”

    “You want to try?” Ilya asked.

    “If you think you can handle it,” Shane said. His blush was only getting darker, but the set of his shoulders was determined.

    Ilya smiled at him, helplessly charmed. Shane was such a competitive little shit, and he loved him so much.

    “What did you have in mind?”

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    11 May 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.

    Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.

    A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.

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    08 May 2026