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  1. Public Bookmark 76

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    “Feel good?”

    “Mhm,” Shane smiled, his eyes closing. “Feels like how I feel when you fuck me ‘n I get all floaty.”

    Ilya breathed out heavily, shifting his hips under Shane as his hand continued to rub circles on his hip. He took another few hits as Shane watched him attentively.

    “Here, you try,” he said, settling the joint between Shane’s thumb and pointer finger. “Like this.”

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    Ilya manages to take Shane home from the club without anyone suspecting a thing. Shane needs him badly, and Ilya wants to smoke. Shane has never smoked, and Ilya loves to make Shane be a good boy and wait. Maybe there's a way to solve both problems.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane snapped.

    Later, people would describe it differently.

    Some called it terrifying.

    Some heroic.

    Some beautiful.

    Shane himself remembered almost nothing except overwhelming, animal panic.

    His gloves hit the ice.

    Then his helmet.

    Then he collided with Volkov hard enough to rip him bodily off Ilya.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya have a quiet night together when Ilya gets home after a night out at Monk's

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Ilya knew, right from the very moment he met Shane Hollander, that he would never be good enough for him. He’d seemed so…pristine, when they first met. Untouched. And Ilya knew his unclean hands would only dirty him up. He’s always been selfish, though; his father used to tell him that.

    So it’s no surprise, really, that Shane has finally gotten tired of it. Of him, always needing more from Shane than he deserves - always begging for more than he has earned.

    Ilya would leave himself, too, if he could.

    (Or, five time Ilya thought Shane would leave, and one time he knew he wasn’t going anywhere.)

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    12 May 2026

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    Shane is desperate, overwhelmed, trying to keep up. Ilya watches unimpressed

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    24 Apr 2026