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  1. Rec *

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    "So… are you going to tell me what's going on with you?" Ilya asked just as Shane popped a dill pickle in his mouth.

    "What do you mean?" Shane kept his gaze fixed on his empty plate.

    "Come on, Hollander. I've known you long enough to see that something is wrong. Tell."

    Shane let out a long breath and leaned back on the couch. "The summer wasn't… good."

    Ilya remained quiet, waiting, leaving him space to explain.

    "A friend died."

    Shane is confronted with mortality and makes a spur-of-the-moment decision to visit Ilya.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    16 Jun 2026

  3. Rec 59

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    [Audio length: 1:12:40]

    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    Déjà vu by NotEvenCloseToStraight

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    16 Jun 2026

  4. Rec *

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    Luca Haas looks Ilya Rozanov in the eye. Ilya Rozanov, recently appointed captain of The Ottawa Centaurs. Ilya Rozanov, who Luca has done unspeakable things to on Archive of Our Own.

    He gulps. His phone is weighing heavy in his back pocket, his phone which has been logged into an Archive of Our Own account for years. An account which features some… disgustingly detailed smut about the man currently shaking his hand.

    or, luca haas wrote a very popular hollanov fic when he was a teenager... he spends the first year of his professional hockey career in fear

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    16 Jun 2026

  5. Rec *

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    16 Jun 2026